This is what i need desperately to tell my mother, but i cant because she committed suicide 6 month ago.
She was sick, desperate and when she told me she was going to kill herself, i couldn´t believe her. I didn´t do anything because it just simply CANNOT be true.
I regret a lot of things but the worse, what I cant stand, is that she had to kill herself to die. I wish, even though she wanted to die, she could have the chance to do it pacefully in a bed instead of what she did. It really breaks my heart to imagine how much she had suffered, she didnt deserve that….nobody does.
I dont know anything about your suffering or your reasons to think this way, and I respect that. I really hope you can give your life a chance and find whatever is needed for you to stay but if its not, tell your family, friends, make them understand your reasons, i will help us, the ones who stayed.
Iam telling you this because i wish i could turn time back, but i cant and I am sure if you die someone would like to tell you forgive me because I didnt could/knew how to help you, I love you no matter what happend and I miss you…everyday.