I really don’t know how to start this post, so, pieces can fall where they may.

I don’t know whether it’s wanting to be saved and know I’m loved because of somebody, or if I really just want a boyfriend/girlfriend/friend. I don’t know. I feel so confused. And conflicted. I just keep dreaming and needing for.. something. I’m not really sure what of yet. I can’t really decipher my dreams that well you know. Anyways, I just am feeling like I’m craving to be loved, touched, felt, understood by someone who truly cares and wants to know me, and all these things. Like, I have a whole list of things that I would feel if I were with somebody, and a whole list of romantic things we could do, or (s)he would do for me, for some reasons. Like, for example, I finally feel wanted, we could talk endlessly about the little things we do, he could write me a song.I don’t know really how to describe it, I’m not good at getting my thoughts down. Everything is just so ugh. What the fuck is wrong with me.