I am sure that I am ready to kill myself. It will be over before you know it. I’m giving myself a week. I am done. I’m tired of crying. I’m tired of breathing. I’m tired of being. I’m tired of living. Most of all, I’m tired of being tired. This world doesn’t need me anymore. I JUST WANT TO DIE. I can’t cry anymore. They’ve ruined me. That is it.
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heyy r u there?
I know what you’re going through because I have. Being tired sucks but you really have to find something that you really enjoy. And when you focus on that it really makes things better. Just try to find something good to find for yourself and not for anyone else.
@Livingonborrowedtime: I’m right where you are, about to set a number of days in which I will continue, hoping for change, and then to end it if nothing comes. I know this doesn’t make you feel any better. Just wanted to say that there are those who really do know where you are coming from. Best of luck.
Hi, *Kieylee102* & *Hurting1*.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.
I have tried to make myself feel better but nobody wants to understand.
I really do think I’m ready to face death.
It’s a sad but liberating time for me. If anything, I’ll be free.
I can’t live knowing that I make everybody unhappy just breathing. I can’t just ‘be’ anymore.
Thank you for replying and understanding.
@Livingonborrowedtime: yea, I understand. Sadly, I have this morbid sort of peace with death at this point. And as I’ve said in several other posts, most people are incapable of understanding how those like us feel. They think we ought to just get over it, but that’s only because they’ve never fallen so low they’d do anything to ease the hurt. They’ve never been so low that dying seemed easier than facing another day. They can’t understand. They never will.
@Livingonborrowedtime: But you know what… While I don’t know you, you seem like a wonderful person. You sound like you feel like me, like you feel like the only sane person in a crazy world. The problem isn’t you. Please don’t give up. Again, I don’t know you, but you have been an encouragement to me, just seeing that there are other folks that feel like me. That really understand what I feel. You don’t know me, and we will never meet, but you have made a friend in me. Thanks for sharing. Sometimes that’s all someone needs to keep on trying.
Exactly!
You know how I feel.
Everybody around me thinks I’m crazy when in fact, I’m totally sane.
Just because I don’t want to live anymore, others brand it an illness.
It’s not an illness. I just want out.
I won’t miss out on much anyway.
You have made a friend in me too. I understand you and you understand me.
It’s like we’re both stuck on the same page.
What is the point in carrying on when all that’ll happen is everything will worsen?
Just like every other being, I fear death.
But when I’ll go, that’ll be it.
That’s what I want, not to ‘be’, to ‘breath’ or to ‘live.’
Thank you for replying once again, friend.
All my love, LOBT (LivingOnBorrowedTime.)
@Livingonborrowedtime: Let me take that a step further. Many people say that suicide is the easy way out. What do they think is easy about it? If it was easy half the population of the earth or more would be gone as a result. But that again goes back to being incapable of understanding. If they that would say its the easy way out had to live 1 day feeling like I do everyday I assure you that they would see that there is nothing at all easy about having to live here and fight the same demons (as I figuratively call it) everyday.
By the way LOBT, glad to see your still here with us!
You make perfect sense.
I think all of these issues (problems) can sometimes be worse than death itself.
I don’t imagine death (by committing suicide) is as simple as some may think. I just think it’s got to be better than living. I say living, I mean just going with the flow of things. So that isn’t actually living, is it?
I’ve got under a week to find something to live for. Nothing seems appealing anymore. Everything’s distorted and appears to be the same.
I’m just ‘tired.’