I can’t think straight….I’m literally thinking about ending my life. My heart is saying ‘keep going you’ve made it this far’ but In my head. I’ve just about given up…. It hurts me… So much to know that if I end my life, so many people will be depressed. I have a lot of good friends but….. I still feel hollow… Like something is missing…. But the worst part is I’m CONSTANTLY crying and I CAN’T stop! No matter how hard I try!!! I can’t keep living this way. I’m trying not to give up, I’m trying to be as happy as I can but in the end…. It fails. Because I’m a fail. A mistake. I’m unneeded… I feel like I’m a waste of space, air and time. This is me ALL of the time ‘I’m done. you don’t have to worry anymore……’
The sad part is… My boyfriend, I love him to death… I don’t want him sad. So I have to lie about being alright… He cares a lot about me though.. I can’t stand the thought of hurting him. He’s my world… I’m scared to tell him how I’m feeling. He does understand why I’m depressed….. He just doesn’t know I kinda feel like taking my own life.
I broke down during and after school today. I wanna know how to take this pain away.. IT’S KILLING ME ON THE INSIDE OUT!
I need someone…. Anyone please, I can’t do this alone anymore.
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you dont have to be alone. im here for you my email is blackreception113@gmail.com if you want to talk, who knows maybe we can help eachother.
i know the pain of crying everyday and having the ones you love leave because of it.. i know how you feel..
“I can’t think straight….I’m literally thinking about ending my life” … same here. Don’t lie to your boyfriend, it only makes you weaker holding onto a lie which does not correlate to reality, and because it makes you weaker, you end up having a sad boyfriend, because you are made weaker because of a lie about yourself, which is not true.
hey ifitmeansalottoyou!
i know it is really hard! But you need to talk to somebody! Maybe if you can’t tell it your parents or boyfriend, tell it a not that close friend or even one of us! i would listen!
hey ifitmeansalottoyou!
i know it is really hard! But you need to talk to somebody! Maybe if you can’t tell it your parents or boyfriend, tell it a not that close friend or even one of us! i would listen!
foreverfakingit@gmail.com. you can email me anytime, ill listen. and try to help.