My world’s caving in on me. My friends have become my enemies. Deep down, they wish I’d just kill myself already.
Everything’s clear now. I thought I’d get over this feeling. I feel hopeless.
There are people who have gone through with it and now it’s time. Time for me to get away. Far away from here.
I’m going to make a video. My last video. If I have the guts, I will post it onto here.
I am so scared right now. I’m trying to distract myself.
I’ll never be what everybody else wants me to, therefore I am not good enough.
I’M EMPTY. I HAVE NO HEART. I NEED TO JUST DO IT. I’M SUCH A COWARD!
I’m tired of being alone. I isolate myself. And nobody’s listening.
Somebody, kill me. Please. I can’t think. I can’t breathe. I’m panicking.
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Sounds like you’re under a lot of pressure. Put on some music, calm down. Big decisions should not be made in an irrational state
One: you aren’t a coward.
If anything, you are very brave. Not many people can deal with the shit you and others put up with. Life delt you a crap hand, and you are still here with us.
Two: Friends? They may make you feel good, but real friends are rare. Many people I considered close friends abandoned me when I needed them most. That’s just people.
But know, I AM HERE FOR YOU!!! I may not respond right away, but I am here. You helped me by writing, I want to help you by responding.
Three: Know you are alive for a reason. If you aren’t religious, science also says you are alive for a reason (one which is EXTREMELY long, and one I probably won’t explain unless you want me to). There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, no matter how dark or sad it is.
And, if you think I spill random crap, I have almost killed myself 4 times in the last 2chapter years, with two times setting it in my mind, and two seperate times actually attempting. I know what you are going through. Most days I think about it, and it’s an extremely good day if I don’t think of it.
We gotta stick together. I’m here, and I have a shoulder to cry on.
I’m tired of crying.
I’m tired of remaining in the shadow of my true self.
I’m just tired of being tired.
Thank you offering me support. But don’t put yourself through that. I’m horrible and a bore.
Plus, I’ll disappoint you when I do finally commit suicide.
im so sorry. i feel very similar to how you feel. i am so tired of crying and im definitely tired of being tired. i go back and forth between thinking im going to disappear and then trying wait out the feeling. it hurts really bad and i know we both want it to stop. i wish there was a way we could all help each other.
Tell me more about yourself?
I want to know more about you.
Nobody can help me anymore. But I’m sure there’s hope for a beautiful being like you.
if nobody can help you, then nobody can help me.
But you’re completely different to me.
I’m horrible. You’re not.
I’m ugly. You’re beautiful.
I’m selfish. You’re selfless.
We’re two different beings.
I have asked for help. Nobody wants to help me.
In response to the “Me” thread that you deleted:
I’m not “lying” to you – i’m telling you what i think based on what I see – that IS as true as it gets – you might disagree or you might lie to yourself and say that i can’t possibly think what i actually think – but that “lie” would be on you.
Like it or not – I, dawg, think you’re beautiful – based on the above picture – i don’t have to “know” you so know what is pleasing to my eyes. And in my eyes you are already at “hottiesville” – deal
FYI – look around here (search term: “dawg”)- you will notice that i don’t “lie” or offer platitudes. I offer truth, insight and advice based on the world as i have and do see it and on the experiences and knowledge i’ve absorbed – choice is always yours to accept or reject my contributions – either way, has no effect on my world
you want fact – i didn’t realize you were a woman til you posted the pic – nor do i know how old you are – but probably a couple decades too young for me. – unless you got a thing for geezers 😛
ole truth dawg
I’m 17. And I’m guessing that is too young?
I appreciate all that you have said.
How old are you?
Old enough to know 17 is illegal here in the states – over 40 under 60 – not that you’re want much to do with someone older than your dad anyway 😉
properly aged dawg
I was 11 (I think?) the first time I tried to commit suicide. 17’s not too young.
Well, then I will just be here on the road, and try to make your passing a little less painful, and for your road to not be so lonely.
I won’t stop you, I’ll just be here to try and make things less painful.
K?
@hurting -…just… WoW. Why wouldn’t you try to stop someone?
Because earlier I did offer her help, and did try to stop her. The author refused my help, and that is her decision to make. I understand that for some people, all the help in the eorld won’t help. Fo I thonk this of this author? No, I do not. I think that she needs people to be there for her, but I will not try to stop her, because if it was me, I would end up getting pissed if people wouldn’t accept what I feel about myself, and I would want someone to accept how I feel about myself, and to respect my decisions in life.
I do not mean to be rude, and if this sounds rude… I SO SORRY!!! I DON’T MEAN TO SOUND RUDE!!!!!
I simply want you to know why 🙂
Thank you. I’ve deeply lacerated my arm. It’s really bad. I was going to tell a teacher but she was busy. I had to respect her decision. The fat and muscle have been cut through. I feel so selfish and disgusting.
I hope that you don’t need stiches, and it heals quickly.
The pain is getting worse?
@hurting -You don’t sound rude, lol. You sound like a person answering my question 😛