Repressed feelings

I’m 22 right now. I wish I could go back to school, so badly. 2001 – 2006 was my school year, I have so many repressed feelings from back then that I can’t let go of and I wish I could go back. Maybe I feel like I haven’t ‘grown up’ enough, not mentally but where I could of visioned myself in life. When I think of my feelings of suicide, it stems back to my school days.. If I had one chance to go back and change it.. It’s the most regrettable time of my life.. I’d give anything to be that 13 year old kid again..