im an outcast. i wish i was normal, i wish i wasnt this broken. maybe they’d like me then. maybe i’d be accepted. but it wont happen. i dont know how to fight the demons in my head and i have no energy left to do so. where my heart should be,its empty. if you look close enough,in every picture of mine,my eyes just look dead. they are dead. arent they the windows to your soul.
im completing the process; the date’s may 24th. its a friday. noone will know,probably. this time it will work, i have everything i need im sure its enough to end it. noone can save me. the world would be better off without a burden like me.maybe..if i dont die that day..ill try to hold on for a little longer..but i dont think i’ll get that chance and for the better,tbh. im tired. till then,ill fake my way through it. ill pretend to be happier than ive ever been. and honestly, the thought of it ending soon,gives me more joy than ive ever felt my whole life.
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baby to see the rainbow we all have to stand in a little rain and its our choice to just stand in the rain and suffer or to dance in this rain of pain
may be there is a storm around you but it won’t lasts forever
whatever you are going through and the pain you are suffering with will end soon and there is no need to end your life becuz your pain and all the sufferings are not stronger than you
Hi deadeyes. Someone who killed herself last year used to lament “I’ll never be normal.” My friend who grieves for her never cared that she wasn’t normal, and if she WAS normal maybe wouldn’t have loved her so much in the first place. Yet we all want to fit in and be accepted. I’ve said the same thing myself. “Normal” people seem so damn happy. *hugs* I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time.