I have come to realise that I actually do not want to get better, ever since I could remember, I have been depressed. And walking away from all that you know to become something else, something allegedly better is way too confronting for me.
Just thinking about this, scares me. And I feel like I am a stupid coward for not wanting to change, I could be normal. I could be happy if I tried. But I don’t think I ever will…