i dont know what to do my so called best friend is now best friends with my sis and none of them is speaking to me because i sh and i did it infront of her one day she said she would have to take time to trust me again. (i wouldnt normally do it infront of anyone but my partner walked out that day and my whole life revolves around him i lost control ) i spoke to her today well, i got a msg she said thats why she hates me and i hate me. have done for a while im severely depressed, i see the mental health nurse and she doesnt care she said i look fine but its easy to put on a smile for everyone. anyway i was planning on ending and i dont know wether i should carry on with my plans or stop coz we could be friends in the future. im not doing it because of her theres loads of factors
my family
her
my partner
my self
i dont know wether its got anything to do other ppl or is it just me ive been like this for 12 years its always circumstances that led me to the end so far 6 times but after that many and i still want to try again. am i just not ment to be here i dont know im unhappy and i dont know if i can be happy again its been so long. i dont know all i know is i cant cope anymore i cant carry on like this i dont want to be here anymore