I thought i was done. Done with self-harm. but i realized i was wrong. Dead wrong. Today after 2 months going strong of no self harm i did it again. I dont even feel bad. Thats what i deserve. After enduring days of cyber bullying and a broken heart, i realized that i could act as strong as i want but ill never truly be strong. So now im on here saying I am Rebecca Goodridge and i am addicted to self-harming myself and no im not strong. im weak. Weak for having one of these suicide profiles, not being able to stand broken hearts and dreams and after all this cyber bullying im sitting here with bloody arms crying to my best friend who is thousands and thousands of miles away.
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Quitting an “addiction” is a complicated process. It often does involve a few relapses, but you’re obviously getting stronger since you were able to stop for so long. You can do it again, and longer next time. It might feel like you’re back at square one right now, but in the big picture, you’re not.
When people go through enormous pain, they can either deaden their emotions and stop caring, becoming numb and soulless (much like the bullies themselves), or they can carry on. Which option is harder? Which one indicates weakness and which one indicates strength? You know the truth deep down.
Seriously you’re strong for coming here really. If you think you’re weak cos you want to die, than I’m one of those people too. That’s why I came here earlier this year, because I wanted to kill myself and have tried doing it. Just because you self-harm doesn’t mean you deserve it. That’s what I think anyway. Try to do things which makes you feel lgood, anything you like that brings happiness to you. What other people think really has no bearing on you, they don’t live your life.
I feel you. I truly do. Stay Strong. <3