here i am

people just think im so strong, and never do anything wrong…well there WRONG!!! im so weak and cant even keep my control not to cut when I have an urge. obviously no one knows im sitting here with the blades right in front of me. expecting that at any moment I will give in and the pain will start. I need it soooo bad. you guys on here get it, I feel like no one else does. well heres the time… here I go.