he called me his earth angel. we where going to be married we was engaged. he passed away and I feel like my past and my future are gone with him. I feel like my heart is going to rip out of my chest. I don’t want to live anymore I don’t want to keep thinking that I will never see him again. I used to believe in god and an afterlife. now I don’t know. he was my whole world, he was the only reason I stopped cutting myself. he made my life worth living. he showed me that people could love me over 7 years we have been together he was in the national guard. his family hates me and I have nothing but memories of him now and I cant even imagine another month with out him let alone the rest of my life. I just feel alone and helpless. I thinkÂ I died with him now imÂ just a empty dead soul.