You know, there’s something about depression that gets me… the way you are suddenly unable to see things clearly. It makes you ask why everyone stopped caring, and I wish I was told this when I was extremely depressed. Then again, that may have been the reason I learned it for myself…
Those people who you thought cared, and then abandoned you? It’s quite possible they actually did care, at least in the beginning. They saw something in you, and just because they chose to stop seeing it, doesn’t mean it’s not there anymore. It was there for them to see, and even if it’s not “active” anymore, it’s a part of you and always will be. They just chose to stop seeing the reason that everything else they saw was worth it, which makes them not worth your time being sad and hurt over.
The people who choose to stop seeing, to stop being there for you… you know they don’t understand. Don’t blame them for not knowing what it’s like. If you must blame them for something, blame them for not trying to at least keep trying for you, with you.
You deserve to be heard, truly listened to, and cared about. And even when you look in that mirror and you don’t see it… well, somewhere inside we all know that we aren’t always the best people to see ourselves. We aren’t made to see ourselves clearly; that’s why our eyes are in our own head, and we need a mirror to get the illusion that we know ourselves best. We’re made to see others, to search and attempt to see what others see in us, and return the favor.
Remember that: you can’t see yourself in the beginning–no one can–so you need to search for those who are able and willing to see the things in you that you don’t.