I cannot go five minutes without thinking about commiting suicide. Â I dont know what to do. Â Have started on medications and counselling, but it only seems to be getting worse. Â I am so lonely where i live, but my parents are dependent on me and hence cannot die.
I am not in a prison, yet i feel like i am solitary confinement most of the time. Â I go to office every week day, gym almost every day. Â Yet, when I return to my lonely house, I feel like i am getting locked up in a prison.
I just need someone to talk to without them judging me. Â Please someone help.
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Well it can be hard. Those medications are probly the reason why things feel worse. Honestly..If I hadn’t had such a large hate for “pills” and doctors when I was young, I might not be here today. I can see clearly if I’d seen a doctor back then, they would have stuck me on medication, slowly driving my mind into the ground.
I’m sorry..I know it hurts but you have to be strong. Keep living your life.
It may seem bad now but keep up the meds/counseling for a few months and you’ll most likely see a change. If the pills are making you feel worse, talk to your counselor and see if they are really necessary or if there are other alternatives. You have complete control over your treatment so let them know what is working and not working for you. If you feel lonely, come back to this site and post or just read the stories of others. You will find that there are tons of people with similar experiences and that you are anything but alone. You sound like a very strong and amazing person, you care about your dependent parents and not everyone thinks of others before they think of themselves, that is a rare and beautiful talent. Best of luck to you, you sound like you have everything you need in your heart to keep going.