I have such an amazing life but I don’t feel it. I know there is potential in me but I don’t feel it. I feel tired and sad and careless. I feel deep guilt for causing stress to my husband with my anxiety attacks and thoughts of suicide. I don’t want to get up anymore. I don’t want to do school. I have short moments when I’m soaring and feel like I’m on top of the world but then all of a sudden feel like I can’t handle life anymore. I don’t want to do this anymore. I find myself wishing I never existed far too often.
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I’m going through something similar and I really don’t have much to tell you. Just remember that there are so many people out there who die at the wrong time. You should enjoy the time you have to live because many people die from cancer or car accidents (ect.) and they would probably want to be alive much longer. You’re lucky to be able to be alive today. Remember things happen for a reason and you don’t know what the future holds.
Thank you for taking the time to write. I’ve never thought of it that way.
I have the same feeling, i feel like i have nothing to do in this world since i became widow. I want to join my husband, i dont want to break my kids heart so i’ll send them to my sis when i decide, i need to know how, when, & where. What r u thinking about? I hate taking meds, they dont kill rapidly & then someone will save me again. I’m thinking of hanging, it needs 20min to body & brain full death, but still didnt decide.