Well now it has been a very long time since i have posted or even visited. i just want to say im fairly certain this will go un-noticed. which is okay, i know that getting views after 1am is very rare (eastern-standard time).
But i just want to say im moving along. i have a job i start soon, i have 2 fairly decent blogs i run. i have friends (not really) i just like to assume there friends. really all i have is idiots i talk to regularly (granted its over the internet.) so yeah im still fairly the same loser i was 10 months ago.
im still as lonely as ever, i just learn to deal with it better. my book is coming along nicely, i don’t expect much. really it takes most writers almost a lifetime to roll out there first book. i feel like im making a good deal of progress (seeing as i get bored easily and jump on another project)
I guess i do what i can to get by. i spend way to much time watching tv shows and movies online.
i seem to be playing the waiting game. as i said, hello seems to be the same as goodbye. i dont know which way this is going to go.
i have no idea if this is a hello or goodbye.
i really dont know what tomorrow holds.Â im sinking but im swimming.
its funny i catch myself trying to go to a site that i cant, to talk to people i hardly like.
its funny how much is out of habit.
a serene sadness (thats right i used serene and sadness together,) has settled over me.
i am sad, but i am okay.
i am sad because i have lost people. they are alive, but i will never speak with them again. and i will probably never get to meet them.
they were a good group of people, but its over now.
so hello or goodbye, it doesn’t matter either way.
life goes on.