Everything I do fails. Everything. Something really good will happen to me, and then I basically get slapped across the face. I feel like nothing is worth effort anymore because something inevitably goes wrong for me.
I feel like there is no meaning for anything in my life anymore. I feel like I’m just in the universe to be taken advantage of. The people I care about don’t care about me. And when I try, people don’t see it.
I’ve noticed people only want to be around me if I’m giving. If I’m selfless. If I ever do something for myself or want something for myself I am suddenly a bad person.
I don’t know what to do anymore. I can’t keep giving but I don’t want to be hated either. I don’t know what to do and I have no one to talk to. I’m seriously alone. My father has made it very clear that he doesn’t care about my problems. My mother is too busy with her boyfriend to have time for me – I’ve called and called but she’s never there and never makes herself available even though she knows how bad I’m hurting. And I don’t have any friends anymore… I alienated myself because I’m scared of being hurt.
I feel really lost and worthless. I failed badly this time. And I lost the one person that mattered to me… my boyfriend. His parents don’t like me and he doesn’t listen well and he’s a big reason for why I feel so worthless…
I don’t know what I did that’s so wrong to make everyone hate me. And I don’t know why everything I do backfires on me so badly. I have a good heart… but I feel really lost now. I want to die, but I’m afraid. I’m desperate.
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Hey, I’ve been feeling the same way. I also lost my friends and my boyfriend and am unsure of what to do with myself. If you would like someone to talk to, my email is solarstarz @ outlook . com (no spaces).
I feel exactly the same as you! Everything I try to do is becoming a failure! Everything I touch turns into shit. And just when I think I am good at something, something happens and I fail at this, too, or loose all skills I had before.
I am a burden to my parents because I am useless and incapable of accomplishing anything. I am 22 and I still don’t have money and they need to pay for me. I am a student at a University, and my parents invest in my life and my university work, but I am failing at university and probably won’t even finish my studies, so everything was pointless, and my parents threw out all their money for nothing! And in addition to that I don’t know what to do with myself and there is nothing I am good at! I have no idea what I could do with my life and how I should be able to live on my own!
And I also do not have any friends or anyone who could tell me how to do things right or how I could manage it to live on my own! There’s no one who could help me or cares. And I can’t do it on my own.
I wish I could help you because you obviously don’t deserve what is happening to you.
I probably won’t be a great help for you. But if you need a friend or someone to talk to, I am willing to be there for you.