Writing helps calm me down.
I don’t know why, but it does.
I’m writing right now, because I’m under severe stress.
They’re still fighting as I’m writing this lol
Well guys, let me tell you my story :v
I mean if you bother even to read it haha
Well, my Dad’s a gambler. he lost all the money in the household and now we’re broke. Like BA-ROKE.
My mom’s suicidal. She always tells me how she just wants to stop living and attempted suicide multiples of times infront of me, and my siblings.
Well, me, I’m just a kid going through highschool
I have a little brother who I’m most worried about.
I worry about the trauma my mom and dad gives to us getting to him
My sister’s in college so she’s practically useless dayum ._.
My mom and dad argue mostly because of money.
and they say happiness doesn’t all come from money.. Well, moeny ruined MY family so proved you wrong whoever said that. HAH
oh and my mom and dad say emotionally hurtful things and physically abuse each other.
Of course, trying to stop them, I get hurt in the process too
When i say physically abuse, I mean like WWE dayum. Like they be punching each other in the face and sometimes when things get heated, my mom would pull out a knife like wtf
My mom has mental breakdowns where she drops to the floor, wails, has spasms and stuff
I wanna call the ambulance but that shit cost money you know haha
I plan on calling them but my dad stops me
One time while i was cooking my dad says jokingly “Haha should we just all kill ourselves, like mass suicide?”
WTF LIKE WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK.YOU DON’T SAY THAT TO YOUR CHILD EVEN IF YOU'[RE JOKING
I don’t bother talking to my friends about it.
All that does is make them feel sad, and pity me.
I don’t bother talking to counselers too because for sure they’re going to send my parents to the mental hospital.
I don’t talk to anyone about it.
Trust me, my parents are crazy and they’re going to the mental hospital if i did
I guess I’m suicidal, I have thoughts about it and attempted it.
BUT I’m too ***** to do it ahah I don’t like pain
WOuld have been easier for me if I just didn;t exist in the first place
Man, existing is tough
Anyways I wrote enough DAYUM
Totes to whoever finished reading this
kinda wish i could die now if i was gunna commit anytime later, because i have a test on tuesday haha