Relationships

Ive never been close with my dad ever. i cant remember the last time i had a proper conversation with him that lasted over 2 minutes. this isnt because he is a horrible man who i would want to block out of my life, infact he is the most kind-hearted and gental man that is accepting. when i was diagnosed with depression i had a lot of anger inside of me that i had no where to put it and because he is so gental and kind it seemed like he was easy to step on and let my anger out on. i truely dont mean it but when im in those moods i dont think till after. he works 5 days a week all day and night and its very rare i see him but when i see him im always angry or just not in the mood to talk. my mum hates him and they fight all the time, shes very controlling and always makes us side with her. her behaviour rubs off onto me and i hate it, i just want to side with him sometimes. i want to tell him how sorry i am and that i do regret my attitude to him through the last year, but its just too difficult. im sorry