Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken

He was taken away from me. In my last post I talked about a man that contacted me and saved my life. He is gone. Taken away from me when I need him the most. I don’t know what really happen all I know is that he is gone. I don’t even know what to do. I’ve been straight for awhile and now all i can do is stare at my blade. I’m trying so hard to keep going, but I don’t know if i can anymore. He’d want me to keep going. He’d want me to try right? I call his phone all the time thinking maybe he will pick up but he wont…because he is gone…. I haven’t told anyone about him yet but its only a matter of time before someone notices…. I was happy, but now my heart is broken