I know I’ve had a lot of posts as of late and they’ve been all covering the same thing. I don’t think I’ve fully been able to get out of my chest what I need to get out so I’m gonna try again. My life is turning upside down as of late…What I mean by that, is that the life I kno now is changing and its changing dramatically…and I am soooo excited about it, but scared….also I’m also frustrated that I can’t have things happen sooner. I am very impatient. This life altering change means that I will be leaving the only life I’ve ever known. Even tho I don’t get along with most of them, I will be leaving my family, and then there r my two best friends…I love love them both and I am so sad that I have leave, but I can’t afford to not leave. I have an amazing opportunity waiting for me…a person who loves me unconditionally, a life that would be so much easier and less stressful than the one I have now…I don’t feel loved…I don’t feel taken care of…and the longer I am here I find myself getting more and more callous. I don’t seem to care about anything here as of right now, except those 2 friends. So….I will be packing my dogs and cat up and moving halfway around the world, so I can be with the one I love. While he is there and I’m here, I feel sad, depressed, lonely and unloved. I need a fresh start…I need to make the life I want for myself…not the life everyone wants or thinks I should have. I need to be with the one I love. And it’s MY life and I choose to move with him and make it our lives. He asked me to marry him and I said yes… and Ive have never wanted anything more. I can’t wait to start this new chapter in my life…but I’m still scared shitless bc it is such a dramatic change…but, just as with anything, I will get thru it, with him by my side. Thank u all for listening to me rant on lol
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That’s great news zebragirl, hope it works out for you. As I tell others who are stuck in a bad rut, the best thing to do is just change your life and clearly you’re doing that. I don’t have much faith anymore that I’ll find a great girl since my best opportunities are behind me but once in a while I do get lucky and find an amazing person-so that’s what I’m hoping for. Best of luck with your new life.
Honey u seem really sweet…any girl would be lucky to have u…if they aren’t lookin then they don’t kno what their missin…I wish all the best for u and I’d u ever need anything, email me…I’m always here
I agree secondlife. You do seem very sweet. 🙂
But now I have a huge issue…and idk what to do…I want to take my 2 Pugs and my cat with me…but there is so much to do, I don’t kno where to start…they have to be put in baggage or under the seat…I’m confused and sad…does anyone kno what I can do or has some advice? Bc my happiness is being tested and I need to figure this out…I can’t have kids, they r my babies…I can’t leave them…I won’t
Aww thanks zebragirl and cagedtiger….you girls seem very sweet also, it takes one to know one. 🙂
I appreciate that ZG, likewise-so long as I’m on this site, I’d be more than happy to share my thoughts and ideas. So feel free to ask me.
As for your pets, I would recommend calling the airline you’re flying with to see what their rules are around that. Bon Voyage.
Some girl is going to see what a great guy you are secondlife. You’re so compassionate and loving, even tho I’m assuming that you’re depressed, seeing that you’re on this website. Still, you’re caring and considerate of others and I bet that you would treat any woman in your life like gold. 🙂
Zebragirl, you can travel with your babies for sure. I know that you can have a cat or small dog in an airline approved carrier under the seat in front of you. If the animal is larger, unfortunately they don’t let them travel in front of your seat and there are different regulations. I’m not sure how big your dogs are and also there are two of them, so as secondlife suggested, you’d need to inquire with the airline what the procedure would be to travel with them. You’ll have to purchase tickets for them as well, but they aren’t too, too costly. Last I heard, they were in the area of maybe $200 or so. I believe that there are also either vaccinations required or maybe just records of certain vaccinations that your dogs have had that you’ll have to show (from the vet)… Good luck with that and wtg for not wanting to abandon your dogs by leaving them behind. I’m sure that they love you so much and who knows what their fate would be had they been left behind. You’re doing the right thing!!!!
Secondlife, I had a feeling that you would be that type. At least there’s still good guys out there, nice to know!!
Thank u cagedtiger…I Appreciate that….yeah idc what it costs, they r coming with me…they r my babies and so leaving without them isn’t an option…I have rescued all 3 of my animals and I don’t want them back in the situation they were in when I found them…I think they’ll like the beach too lol…I have 2 Pugs and they love the sandbox, so next step is the beach…I also looked into a professional pet mover which might be my only option…Pugs can’t be left in hot or cold places and the airlines tell u it’s temp controlled but I’ve read reviews and a lot of animals end up with dehydration or heat stroke…and that’s with reg dogs…I couldn’t risk that…but we will see…plus the shots and paperwork take 6 moths to complete…siiiiiiiiigh I’m never gonna get there…but anyway…
Secondlife, u do sound sweet…I kno that u go only for the beautiful girls, so that means I’m out lol, so hopefully u will find the beauty u r looking for…just never give up hope on urself or others…as long as u do that, ull be open enough to always find what u r looking for. If u need anything, email me…I’m always here for u if u need me.
It’s awesome that you’re adventurous enough to do this. I wish you and your fiancé all the best. 🙂
Hi guys, I don’t know why my post that you replied to from yesterday disappeared, so I’m reposting it:
Thanks cagedtiger, you’re a good judge of character. While I’m down about my life as it is now, I’m still a good guy underneath. I tried being an asshole for a very brief time in my life and hated it-it’s just not in my nature.
As the saying goes, ‘It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you are not.’ I’ve always seen girls as something very, very special so yes when I find that right girl she will be treated like gold or a queen. 🙂 But my achilles heel is that I do like the pretty ones and just can’t settle for less.
Cagedtiger 2:10 am on October 26th, 2013
Indeed, while there’s the risk of getting ‘friend-zoned’ when you’re a ‘nice guy’ I think at the end of the day at least the smarter girls realize it’s better to be with a guy who is caring and loving than one who is selfish and treats them badly. Likewise for girls too.
zebragirl1984 2:21 am on October 26th, 2013
Haha, I think most girls are prettier than they realize and I’d settle for cute. 🙂 It’s not like I’m a model either lol. Thanks for the support and I’m sure you know you have mine as well (this goes for CagedTiger too). And I’m here for you both if you want to chat about anything.
Thank u Persephone…I’m not really adventurous, I just desperately need a change…I hate it here and I want to be with him so bad…those things together mAde me decide to give up what I kno, so I can go outside my comfort zone…I’ve heard that’s when u become most happy, when u do something out of the norm…u find out who u r and can learn to love urself
Secondlife, did u get my msg? I just wanted to make sure
Zebragirl, I’m heading out for now but will reply later.