I posted on here a while ago. I am still here but I do wonder why. life is hard, I know, much harder for many others than it is for me, but I just can’t see the point. I have no motivation lately, I have no motivation to excercise, to diet or even to shower. I cancel plans with friends because I just can’t be bothered and don’t want to see anyone. I just feel so tired all the time.
I often wonder when I will do it. I have always thought I will end my own life. Things are just so frustrating. I don’t know who I am, I can’t follow my believes. I hate animal cruelty but can’t go vegan, because it’s too much effort. Everything is too much effort. I am just so lazy and unmotivated. I still get up and go to work but that is pretty much it,
I feel empty inside. Please talk to me at becki_one@yahoo.com I feel so lost. I can’t talk to the doctor my more as I feel they are judging me. I am on some very good meds which have definitely made me more stable but it does not make me immune to feeling suicidal. I couldn’t let my work find out the extent. I don’t know anyone I can talk to in person regarding the way I feel. I feel they would judge me and why would anyone want to listen to my rumblings anyway.
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How long have you been like this?
Have you ever been prescribed antidepressants and if so, how did they make you feel?
How good is your short term memory?
Do you find it difficult to concentrate?
The longer you leave it, the worse it will get.
hi, been like this 15 yrs, yes on long term venlafaxine 225mg. They keep me, or used to keep me stable. My memory is shocking.
I tend to do about 3 things at once (tv, ipad, checking phone) at the same time ans still feel bored to tears.