Emptiness has a way of taking over

If you have ever felt like there is no light, no fulfilling happiness, you can’t find happiness…? You’re where I am. I am empty, hollow really. There’s nothing here… I don’t cut myself on my wrists, it’s too obvious. I have cut myself on my thighs, cuz no one sees them there. I’ve tried everything to Gain happiness… Sex, drugs, alcohol, suicide, animals, nature, friends, family, counseling…. But nothing helps. I don’t have a smile on my face for very long, if I do, it’s probably fake and it’s there to keep people off my back.  I look fine on the outside, but inside… I’m screaming and crying. I want to curl up on the floor and fade away. I have so much to give, but no one to give it to. I’m empty. Hollow. Alone.