She left me. It was about time that she did. How is it possible to hurt someone that you love? It makes no sense. I took advantage of her kindness and now I stand here without you. Why do I always destroy every relationship that I am in. I miss you so much Kim, you have no idea. I regret hurting you. Every night I think about how to kill myself. What’s the easiest way to finally get rid of my life. My clock is ticking.
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Don’t live in your past mistakes, you can’t change what you did. But you can become a better person you can fix yourself so that you don’t make those same mistakes. That way this was a lesson learned not something loss. If your meant to be then you will be and this time you’ll be a better person. If not then because of her leaving you were able to become someone better. I know its all easier said then done, the pain is overwhelming. But you can’t keep beating yourself up about it you have to begin to forgive yourself and be better.
Thank you so much for that Alina. Your kind words really got me thinking. I should keep my hopes up and become a better person. I am a very impatient person and always want things to be done instantly. I never give anything time.
i’ve been there
How did you deal with it?
i don’t know, I’m still there, i’m sorry.
I am the same way sometimes, I want things to be fixed immediately. Hope is the only thing we have sometimes we loose sight of it i know I do a lot. But we have to find it we have to become better people as long as we learn from our mistakes then thats all that really matters. As long as we try and hope and have faith that things will work out the best way possible for us. Notice i didn’t say we get what we want i said we get whats best for us and sometimes what we want and whats best aren’t the same thing. It hurts pain is just a part of life but we have to cling to hope and make a difference in ourselves. I’m glad my words were able to bring some up lifting. Regardless of what happens always strive to make yourself a better person you deserve to be forgiven. We are human we all make mistakes so forgive yourself, best of luck.
I’m sorry. Do you miss her a lot?
aliana has a good point. the one thing keeping me going is the phrase, “if it’s meant to be, it’ll be” and i am at a place where i need to believe that’s true. don’t give up, things will work out in the end. i believe in fate, and that if you need someone in your life, they’ll come back to you. maybe not soon, but they will come back. and if they don’t, then you don’t need them. i don’t know, it might not be true but its what keeps me going
@wiltedrose:
So you’re saying that you believe nothing is ever wrong in this world, and that everything that happens, is “meant” to happen… and that everyone always has everything they need, even if they mistakenly believe otherwise.
It’s very upsetting to me that anyone would resort to such a contrived perspective. It takes a lot of suffering to break in such a way that you’re willing to tell yourself “this is how things are supposed to be.” But living that way doesn’t work in the end, because it doesn’t fix what’s wrong. Like an ostrich burying its head in the sand… only with people, the sand is in our heads, in the form of fantastical ideals designed to shield us from the unacceptable, miserable realities we’d rather not accept.
ok, thats not what i meant. i was talking about relationships, and how if two people need each other, then they will find a way to be together
I know how you feel. Lime her love is the only thing you will ever want or need. I wish I could tell you time makes it better but I actually think I’m getting worse as time goes by. A broken heart, a broken spirit is the most painful thing to deal with. I want to hug anyone that’s going through this. Why are humans built to be able to hurt each other so much. I can’t wait until Xmas. My suffering will stop then.