I always envied and despised stupid people around me. Why do they get to be happy? Why was I always told being smart is a good thing?? It’s not a good thing. Being smart is a curse. The smarter you are the more socially awkward you are. Especially being a smart kid. Stupid kids become stupid adults and they are the ones that get to enjoy the meaningless pleasantries of life. Being smart sucks. The dumbest stupidest assholes have the most friends and screw like damn bunnies. Why can’t I have 500 friends and screw 24/7…. It’s a curse. being smarter than 9/10 people is a curse. It just intimidates them, makes you seem weird or superior. People fear what they don’t understand. What they fear must be ridiculed and marginalized to substantiate their own feelings of self worth. I’m different. most of you are probably different. Stupid people don’t get this depressed. Why would they? They couldn’t see how the world is fucking them if you gave them a map and a flashlight and couldn’t care less anyway. The illogicality of it all. Why would the cow care about the slaughter house next to the field? As far as they are concerned the grass is green and tasty. The cattle prod just an uncomfortable minute distraction from the tasty cud they occupy their lives with. How many dogs have you seen that want to kill themselves? Stupid people are more animals than human. Who wants to be human. Being human just entails a life of disappointment and failed expectations. I wish I could just enjoy the grass. I envy and despise them all at once. Probably why people use heroin. Wish I could just take the slow road out with a needle stuck in both arms. I envy you stupid !!!
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Omg…my husband, he’s stupid….I’m sorry. And he’s happy! lol
Having a bad day, are you?
Have you ever seen office space? Is this the worst day of my life? Yes yes it is. Guess what I get to look forward to tomorrow. The next worst day of my life. The day after that….well you get the point
that lucky lucky fuck
“Have you ever seen office space? Is this the worst day of my life? Yes yes it is. Guess what I get to look forward to tomorrow. The next worst day of my life. The day after that….well you get the point”
LOL!
Yes. Me too.
Try having mental retardation like I do. Every day of life is an incredible humiliation. You cannot help but humiliate yourself because you don’t know better. If you experienced one day of being mentally retarded you would never complain again about your intelligence. Intelligence is a tremendous blessing.
Idk about that rach. As much as i appreciate the severity of your unnamed condition, and feel i understand as well as someone outside those circumstances possibly can, and truly empathize…
Try to imagine being a hypersensitive mentally gifted person with real attention deficit disorder and a “mild” (comparatively) physical problems, who is profoundly depressed by the reality i observe and intuitively, almost effortlessly understand; the result is what is often called an “invisible disability.” People can’t tell anything is wrong by my look or the way i speak. My thoughts strike with lightning speed and intensity, with a clarity i cannot even hope to adequately describe… and yet, my body, even my brain, just won’t do what i really want it to do. “Normal” people seem to think i’m “lazy” or “not trying hard enough.” But they just don’t understand how difficult it is to consciously control and cope with everything all at once. I’m easily overloaded and it’s exhausting. I see so clearly that there is little, if any reason, to even try. Success? Monetary gains? But then what? There is no purpose other than to feel good while we’re alive, or at least avoid as much of the pains and damages as is possible. But even when we do our absolute best, we can be so easily ruined by someone else who doesn’t care enough to bother to look out for the negative impacts of their actions upon others. My consideration, alone, is not enough to carry the entire world. I can’t be considerate-of-others-enough, for everyone. I have enough for myself and maybe a few other people… but in addition to fighting the constant war against my “invisible disability,” there is also the requirement to “babysit” other people, often adults, who should damn well be fully capable of being considerate, all on their own, who simply… aren’t; whether intentionally or inadvertently.
Imagine if everything you ever saw, immediately made sense… but there was just nothing you could do about it.
I’m not trying to diminish anyone’s struggles, but i think that if you more easily understand more things, and sense more things at once… then seeing and understanding all that’s wrong and can’t be fixed, likely hurts even more.
Then again, there is something to be said for the discomfort of confusion…
So i’m honestly not sure.
Is it worse to understand what you can’t fix, and be driven mad by clearly observable impossibility?
Or is it worse to not understand, and be terrified by confusion?
Maybe they’re roughly equivalent, but just feel different.
That about sums it up. Other than your flawless grammar it describes the crux of my problem more eloquently than I cared to point out. Having the ability but not the capacity is probably worse than the alternative of having no ability or capacity. Ignorance is bliss. Watching the ignorance of others is more embarrassing than any personal embarrassment . The scale of the failure is what makes it so sad and pathetic. It’s not her fault she is mentally retarded. 9/10 of everything else is a preventable train-wreck unfolding before our eyes. Maybe it’s a question with no answer.