If we are going to continue to have a society in which 1. teens think they have no other option but to off themselves, and 2. we need to neglect the poor further because people like the Trumps and Waltons need a few hundred million more, well, the second coming can’t come soon enough for this miserable fucking planet.
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Stupidity
on the outside I look
Strong
Confident
Smart
Cool
But on the inside I’m
weak
shy
dumb
stupid
scared
hurting
I am only 25 but I feel like suicide has become the only option for me. I want to share my story with you and I hope you’ll give me an honest response on whether it suicide seems acceptable in my case.
My life has always been fucked up. My mum was schizophrenic and an alcoholic. From the post natal depression she was deemed unfit to care for us and I went through several foster families who abused and physically attacked me. She died from liver poisoning when I was 5. My dad took my brother and I in for two years but we lived in […]
I always envied and despised stupid people around me. Why do they get to be happy? Why was I always told being smart is a good thing?? It’s not a good thing. Being smart is a curse. The smarter you are the more socially awkward you are. Especially being a smart kid. Stupid kids become stupid adults and they are the ones that get to enjoy the meaningless pleasantries of life. Being smart sucks. The dumbest stupidest assholes have the most friends and screw like damn bunnies. Why can’t I have 500 friends and screw 24/7…. It’s a curse. being smarter than 9/10 people is […]
Heads up, this is a rant. I need someone in the world to hear this even though it will never change my life. No, this is not the only reason I want my life to be over but of all the reasons, this is the only one I chose and I want someone to understand how stupid I feel and how lost I am.
I don’t even know who I am anymore. I used to think that when I started my own life, I’d do things right. I’d find love and give love. I’d be strong and confident. I’d make everyone around me feel welcome and […]
So i decided to share my suicide story with you. Â I am 26 year old male from Europe. I had on-off strong suicide thoughts since my early teenage years. I hate myself a lot. i don’t think i should live on.
The reason for that is that i always end up in some really bad, shitty situations. Mostly due myself and my own stupidity, Â laziness or my weak character. I mostly live from one emotional disaster to an other, some shit always happens to me, and i freak out and can’t take it easy. And i effect people around me, a lot of people got […]
*My mom is mentally and partially physically abusive
*my dad didn’t want anymore kids, aka, me
*my sisters raised me, then left me with my mother
*my dad is never home
*my dad never talks to me
*I was molested and taught to masturbate at age six by my sisters friend
*my mother openly talks about my idiocy and stupidity to strangers
*I have been suicidal since 6th grade
*my mom left me in 4th grade
*I’ve been convinced that its okay to give my body away
*I’ve been raped
*I have commitment issues
*I’ve tried to commit suicide twice
*I have an addiction to cutting
*I’ve been bullied because I’m different, emo, a kandi kid, scene, bisexual, on […]
I legitimately want to die.
I can’t tell anyone.
They say I’m a good person. That may be true. But I feel like dead weight. I really do not want to talk myself out of this.
I hate the idea of not being able to make a truly positive impact in someone’s life. It feels like the people closest to me find me intolerable.
I feel intolerable. For thinking this at all, I feel it is all the more reason to stop monologuing and go through with it.
I’ve killed myself so many times in my mind.
I don’t know who I am.
Blame it […]
I’m sick of it all!! The world leaders and the stupidity, the difficulty dealing with my own stupidity and my past. I love my children; I do and people care for me but they care more about me than I do. I’m jealous of all those who have died already however they died. I have lost those closest to me except for my girls who are probably the only reason I wake up. I cry all the time. I’m stressed and have thought of more ways to die than the Mayan long count calender has days! I don’t want to die because i BELIEVE life […]
Ive live 17 years and 2 weeks. these years have been plagued with ridicule ,lies and grief.
i might be the most stupid person i ever meet. living this tragic life of morbid obesity and stupidity is a horrible burden.
So i just wanna feel light and careless. Death please take me.
I suppose I do it to myself most times. I wish i could blame someone else; that would make it easier. But its all me. My stupidity, my poor decisions, my attitude. I just want it to end. I hate being numb all the time. It feels like the only thing i can feel is anger or sadness. I want to kill myself but i’m just afraid of what might happen if it doesn’t work. I don’t want to feel any more pain. I just want it to be done–quick and clean.
What am i supposed to do? There’s no reason for me to stay. I […]
It’s always a little disheartening to watch your favored boxer slip and move only to step into a hard punch that otherwise could have been avoided if he had done…nothing. Â He would have been better off had he not moved at all. Â And so it goes with life. Â What is the right question to ask here, if there is one at all? Â Is it important to take risks and repeatedly fail, with the very real risk of conditioning yourself to accept it? Â Or was this a mistake, misjudgment or worse- sign of weak character?
Over the past four years of my life, I’ve looked back at […]
I have tried for a long time to break out of this.
…it came to me like a freight train plowing through molasses.
Society is slowly growing so stupid that it soon will not be possible to express it in words.
It is an existential stupidity.
In the frozen food aisle at the grocery store, right next to the chicken-nuggets, there was a section for frozen-yogurt dog-treats. Dog treats. Made out of frozen yogurt. I’m not sure what to make of it… Then, while in the meat department, I noticed a sign above one of the sectionals which said, “Natural Meats,” with an arrow pointing down. No thanks, I thought, I’m looking for the unnatural meats. Like cloned bats and […]
Sometimes i wanna take the easy way out. Like my Dad. When i was little i used to be so lonley and small, i used to try to semerge myself in the tub and hope i wouldnt give up,and come up for air. I used to yell into my pillow, cry but not just cry.. Soul cry. I like to write alot, hope to make it a Career so, listen up. See, 64 year olds they get a little crazy at that age. My grandma is a old winkley ***** that you just wanna punch in the face because she doesnt hear stuff right and […]
All of the beautiful lies.., all the empty promises.., ignorance and stupidity bringing me to lay in my mistakes. Unable to run,, nor hide. Suffocating in fear. Closing my eyes, unable to protect me or hold me tight. Tears rushing to satisfy my pain. The cut that wanted to make me forget.., only bringing more memories. Stuck in the past. Unsure of the future. Slipping through the cracks. Surviving but not living. Always miserable and never happy. Don’t worry little butterfly.., life gets better.
Maybe I need to live in hell on earth before I can ascend into heaven? I feel as though my life on earth is just a plain hell. I walk, aimlessly, seeking some type of purpose. It never seems to be attainable.
I think out of my whole life, i was only happy for a year. After that, I never found that kind of joy again or magic so to speak. I know compared to others, I should be grateful for what I do have. I just cannot seem to be uplifted.
I look at myself and just feel disgust. Maybe my life is an evil joke […]
After the little incident, I’ve kind of calmed down. It took me a panic attack and about an hour of biting viciously to calm down. Which sucks. I broke my personal goal of no more biting. :/
I think I’m letting this situation get out of hand. I tore myself up about it and now I just need to let it go. For crap’s sake, it’s college. I don’t understand why I beat myself up over a fucking one night stand. So for a few days, I’ve been recovering from my stupidity and getting back on track with classes. It was going pretty well. Then last […]
why must i always do stupid stuff… i seem to not have a conscience…..i wonder why i do it…
I’ve always wanted to die, ever since I was a child, I have no idea why. When I was a child and I believed in god, I prayed not to wake up the next day. And yet, I had a normal childhood. It seems that I have a tendency towards depression. Well, the years have passed and I imagined killing myself in so many ways that I can’t even remember them all. Now I’m all alone but I’m fine with loneliness, in fact, I think I want to be alone. I’m sick and tired of this crazy world and all the people, I want a […]
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