Why does it always happen to me?

Hey there. I’m not going to post a lot of random happy shit to try and make you feel better. I just felt that I should say something, before you make that decision, if you haven’t already…
One of my brothers suffers from Bipolar Disorder. It is a horrible condition. He often contemplates suicide and discusses it openly with me. It is a very hard thing to live with, knowing how much pain your family member is in and not being able to help, being able to do nothing. It’s quite a common condition, where I am from, but the mental health system here is fucked up. We have tried to help him get treated but with really limited success. Sometimes, when he is in his depressive state, he lashes out. Usually at me. At first, when I was younger and didn’t understand it, I used to be so angry, and I’d resent him. As you get older, you understand it better. I don’t judge or blame him anymore, when he looses control. You are ill, and your sister should understand that. If she doesn’t now, she will with time. Your parents should be doing more to help her understand the condition you’re facing, or perhaps should be educated more themselves towards just how debilitating it is. It must be really hard. I am sorry that your family isn’t more understanding. I really am. I used to act out at my brother, and I feel terrible for it now. Your sister isn’t right, to treat you that way.
I wish you luck, what ever you decide.