sometimes people change your path for a reason

we all have choices every day to make …some good …some bad ,,,,but my whole world is upside down and I am not allowed to work….so if I cant work and pay my bills to the county …THEN I GO TO JAIL.”””””’i live in the mountains above fresno cal. and I have many talents in every walk in life …..I can move mountains .with the faith I have ,,..but I need to be less restricted by the county probation department ………there is no reason for me to be forbidden from any tribal casino……..there is a law that states that ,,,,,,,,my father always says pick your wars well I don’t want to challenge probation tell just put me in jail to shut me up …….and well sorry bryan higins cant afford his bills ,,,,,,,I cant do non legal things ……so I have been turning to mother earth for my income ….and im doing gold again ,,,,and its true gold is where you find it ….and gold kills people ……its part of the process ……hard work and chemicals and mercury ,,,,so when I get brain dead blame the county of Madera’s finest …….my question is
if I cant work doing security
I cant work as a handy man
I have a broken car
I cant pay my court ordered counseling …..really …..7 years of counseling ..$50 per class for a crime that is worth ^6 months prison time ….whats wrong with this picture ….its because the laws changed well maybe I will change to and be a spirit and torment you for life ……
im sick
im tired
and im broke…….I went from rags to riches to the gutter why terms an conditions and if parol doesn’t pay for counseling then who payed my $10.000 gps bill probation or maybe God payed it something is wrong with county systems and if things don’t change well im done I have well over payed for my crime ………………but ether way its a war ii cant win in this world without money and not being able to work because someone thinks I might get in trouble at the casino……..for the love of Christ …….after 7 years of crap an bs …you put no faith in me and your counselors that fix me ……….honestly I don’t need fixing the systems system does ….when my last g friend died …….no one cared … no one listened to me ……if I didn’t listen to the people that govern me ….she would still be alive …….sorry im venting but
laws of laws are being abused ……..and every case has special circumstances……..I don’t want to be a victim of a bully ….in any circle…..how much more do I have to pay ..
WILL MY LIFE BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU ……BECAUSE YOU WONT LET ME WORK

I cant do this any longer …….so thank yo