How do you actually know if you’re a living with depression or not?? Yeah you read up on it but how do you actually know. Only recently I’ve had thoughts about killing myself again. Had these thoughts in the past but never gone through with it. Like HOLY FK could my life get any worse now? no money, no savings, filed bankruptcy, a car that needs fixing and now it’s being reprocessed, a gf who wants to leave overseas (but really who would blame her for leaving) it’s in her best interest she leaves me cause I’m just nothing wasted space.. Can’t make the right decisions if it fall out the sky and hit me on the head… Times I feel it’s easier just to walk out in front of a car but then I think I would rather take some pills and never wake up..I have a knife next to my bed hoping it would just slip and cut me deep.
Don’t know why I’m sharing this with anyone.. Hoping for someone to stop me but why? I know I would hurt people around me by taking my life but eventually they all move on with their own lives.
There are some really nice genuine people I know I will hurt..
Why can’t killing yourself be easy? Well it is actually..
if it just trip myself but make sure the knife is there to fall on? Or I should take some pills and see? If this doesn’t work walking in front of a bus or truck or even jumping off a bridge?
Life is fucked and I’m just wasted space..
down N out
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Yeah, I just had a girlfriend leave me even though I treated her with respect. I think about suicide quite often, but too many things could go wrong. I thought hanging myself would be easy, but I found out it’s possible to decapitate yourself.
It helps to put things in perspective. The vast majority of people are living under some form of financial stress.
I think that if you feel negative about being yourself, then you are depressed. If others can make you feel terrible, yet you feel okay with yourself and being who you are, then just like me, you’re screwed, or so it would seem.
You are just going through really hard times… as for your girlfriend… if she was there only for the money, i think it’s better for you than she leaves, so you can get up, fix things for yourself, and find a girlfriend who will lend you a helping hand when you are down, better than having one that will run off when things get rough… you are being too hard on yourself, everybody goes through hardships (some worse than others) at some point in their life… if you can still find a way of turning it around try it first, exhaust all your options, you lose nothing by trying.