If somehow you found yourself already having resolve and reason to kill yourself how would you do it?
For me (and I know its “selfish” and wrong) it would be suicide by cops because even though I think of myself as a waste of space I think just killing myself would not accomplish much on my agenda; might as well take the people I hate with me right? I mean if I just up and killed myself through hanging or jumping or whatever …who would care? no one. might as well release what has been pent up inside me for all my life in my last moments; and again I know its wrong to think this way but I just want others to feel what I have been feeling and ask their selves “Why me?” like I have been doing for so long.
By the way you don’t have to worry about me actually doing it. I still have my parents and siblings that I live for and I wouldn’t do anything like that while I still have them I just cant help thinking about these stuff when I’m feeling down.
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Having already attempted……
If I ever got to that point again…….
I would likely use a gun and shoot myself in my wifes; work parking lot so she can witness the mess and commotion,
or go about the water/drowning method (again), only next time I would drink a cocktail that would definitely knock me out while underwater while using scuba.
I would go out in deeper water with 40 pounds of lead on my belt, just swim around until passed out, at which time regulator would fall out of my mouth, no hope of coming to the surface……
and its’ over.
I have also thought about cyanide, as it is easily obtained from a jewelry supply place.
Hopefully I’ll never get that depressed again, although who knows.
The fact is I have a plan(s).
I have a plan. I have personally known 4 suicides. 2 shooting, 2 hanging. I have chosen hanging and my birthday as my date. I decided on my location this morning. Now I just have to wait.
I’m going to start writing my goodbye letters tonight when it’s quiet. I will probably give my grand children’s letters to someone to hold on to until they are old enough.
I don’t fear pain. I fear failure. I need a sure-fire way to get ut right in the first try. I’ve researched suicide and Christianity. My biggest fear was going to Hell and not seeing my Mama again. She died in 1994. I hae been on medication. No insurance now. I have ruined my life. The light at the end of the tunnel is a train.
I feel like I can interpret your post in two ways:
Either you dislike cops in general because some cop wronged you in the past, and therefore want to take it out on one or more random cop(s).
Or you hate your life and the lack of help and understanding you’re met with, so you want to take it out one one or more random cops, so that they will feel what you have been feeling for so long.
Suicide by cops means going on a crime spree(murder,heist etc.) to a point where cops eventually come to kill you on the spot. I don’t hate cops in particular but maybe the people involved in my hypothetical crime spree would be.
I thought all you had to do was point a weapon at an officer, with or without an attempt to injure and they would shoot you. Why go on a spree and cause harm to others?
I would do it with the ******** exit-bag method. I already attempted suicide a couple years back by overdose, but it was impulsive and in the heat of the moment. This time I’ve planned it for over a month and bought my 60 cu ft ******** cylinder tank and regulator like 2 days ago. Now I only need a vinyl tube, oven bag, and alcohol to go through with it.
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Why not? Why would it matter to me at that point? I wouldn’t be going to heaven anyway if that even existed and the bible was to be believed as it does say that suicides go to hell anyway. also I hate people that’s why
Bridge.