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@DAlex Hey, I’m not gonna say my real name on here but I’ve been in your situation a few times including right now. Which is the reason I wanted to respond to you. I read all your post and you’re a very intelligent person. You can do better than her man. From what I’ve seen about your post she treats you like a worthless shit(excuse me) bag and is using you to get high off your feelings. My ex was like that and that’s why I ended it. I couldn’t stand her. I loved her so much but she always treated me like shit. When we broke up she’d say “btw I’m not a virgin.” At that point I hadn’t taken it and I never did because ever since she had said that things slowly got worse and worse between us. Which somehow made me feel better. And I think it was because I realized I had control over her now. I wasn’t mad in love anymore over a silly little girl. I had realized I could do better than be treated like shit everyday of my life so I got rid of her and she text me to this day. It’s been over a year. She tries to get me back still which makes me feel great because she ruined my life for a good 3 years. But I’m in an amazing relationship now with the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met and she loves me a lot and I have insane problems with trust issues. But she has gained mine bit by bit.. We’ve now been talking for over 3 years and we’ve broke up twice which had me on my ass like you. But I was the one doing the breaking up. While she was the one cutting my name in to her leg and sitting in the dark all day everyday. I talked to her about a few weeks after we broke up and she had just cut my name in to her and sent me a picture. Which somehow made me cry. I’m not a person that has feelings anymore since the relationships I’ve been through. But realizing that I had caused her pain made me feel horrible and I asked her back out because I felt bad and I wanted to help her and she’s doing great now no cuts or anything. I made her promise she wouldn’t cut herself or we’d be done. She hasn’t been depressed in a while. I’m falling in love fast and want to marry her soon(I’m 18 btw) We have a great relationship, but today I guess you could say I was being rude to her and she’s not taking it good. And it bothers me bad. I hate seeing her hurt. But I don’t wanna talk to her at the moment. So I’m not.. Who knows if she’s fine. She’s not the most sane person I’ve met but she is amazing. I took 20 xanax a few minutes ago because I told her I felt like doing it and all she said was “Ok, I’m not gonna stop you since I’m the one that made you mad” I said “So, you don’t care if I OD?” She said she does but who knows I’m doing good so far. I just wanna tell you that relationships hurt bad and you can’t fall for the wrong one. What I did today was stupid and I don’t wanna talk about what happened but, I took it way out of proportion. I know she would kill herself if I died. So I’m trying to hold on. She’s the only person I care about anymore. When I didn’t have her what stopped me is having a caring family. It gets better though. She sounds like a horrible person in my opinion and I’d move on man. She’s doing what I used to do to every girl. And I am a shitty person for that. But I’ve been faithful now for a long time. I think it’s great. The arguments get hard but I stick around because I love her. I didn’t plan on typing all of this, I apologize. Got a little deeper as I went on lol. But you can do better. You’re a smart and sound like a very good guy. Just heave these words.. Wait till the day you realize that you loving her was the stupidest thing you’ve ever done. Because it happened to me and it’ll happen to you. And you’ll be over her when that happens. Just hang in there bud. If you got a Skype or something and wanna talk let me know man. I hope you’re doing alright. Peace