Day 31

First off “It’s so tempting to go”. It is. It is always tempting to go. Sometimes too tempting. Suicide is the worst stalker. Suicide is a stalker nothing can be done about. The good thing is, you haven’t said goodbye yet. Which is good. I’ve pretty much said goodbye to everybody in my life. Except for a few select, which may never get a goodbye, quite possibly out of my own weakness.

Second off. Poetry is good and one of the best ways to express yourself and for others to comprehend the emotion. It is really beautiful. Very story-like with an image that just sticks to the reader. It’s like a scene. Just the last scene that has to happen, right? The preparation. Then the death. I’ll just put that out there bluntly.

But then I read the ending where your friends are going to miss you, then won’t know what to ‘Do, Feel, or Think’ like you say. That’s the hardest part, is leaving somebody in that position. And then the very last line ‘But not for the last time’, it just all comes together. It’s a personal belief the ending of my life won’t destruct the beginning of another’s, and that’s all that matters. It’s for the best too, right? Ending pain is the only thing we, hurt people, want to do. We want to leave the world because how can we be so imperfect? How do we even have a place in this world?

Anyways, the point is, the poetry is really good. Very enjoyable. It is thematic and talks about release. I always enjoy a piece of veracity, relatable to my own mentality. It means I’m not alone. And if this is the reason I’m not alone, it means you’re not alone either.

Dredd, that is true. I agree that it’s the problems who are the stalkers and not suicide. Everybody dies naturally at some point, suicide is dying earlier then that “natural time”. I don’t hate suicide. I actually like the concept. Personally to me it acts as something I’ll always be able to control. I can’t say I hate suicide and I’ll likely never say that. Suicide isn’t the enemy, at all. When I said it stalks me, I more meant it like “It’s always on my mind”.

@Clevername
I am obsessed with quotes. So I will accept explanation through them. In all honesty, they, for the most part, are correct. I agree they hurt more then heal, so sorry, I can’t make that bet with you. That fifth paragraph states something very true, something is harder to undo then do (Note: may not be 100% true in ALL cases). But I’m speaking for the most part.

That whole “sticks and stones can break my bones, but words can never hurt me” . . . I don’t know how many people can relate to this, but I believe the opposite. I’ve had harm from both the physical and mental side and I’d rather take on physical. (Statement derived from my personal cases)

As for the last paragraph, it’s so true. The words, they are just the messenger. Just a mean of communication. When you say that words can’t hurt you unless you let them . . . I think most of the time people don’t realize that they’re just “letting” themselves be hurt. That would be asking for the pain also. And as a normal human being, I don’t believe we’d do that. If pain only came when we asked, I don’t think so many of us would be hurt.

In conclusion, I do not blame words. That would be like blaming the mailman when you got a hate letter in the mail. And if they carry a “truth you cannot change” then that is one of the things we just have to struggle to deal with. Painful or not. Because a truth will never vanish.

@LetItGo
Sorry if this conversation wasn’t the intention of your post. But your response is very well put. Despite anything, I still believe words can go in both directions like you said.