I want to help …( if I can)

First of all I just want to say this before I start anything :
I’m sorry if I offend anyone at all I don’t mean too I just want to help someway

Ok here’s what I notice about suicide ( this is my opinion so please don’t be mean)

It isn’t your fault but it is..you know? Like ok I’m sounding mean but let me explain myself :

– I mean it isn’t your fault you feel this way and this might not apply to others but for me it makes sense because I felt that way and then I just noticed that people can help . Not all people are bad , I mean like sure someone may have gone through rape ( I somehow know how that is because my mom was but that isn’t my story to tell now is it) or maybe you’ve been bullied or maybe something traumatizing has happened to you, anyways I just noticed that many people have different problems and that many have stuff going on that no one knows. It’s just ok I may not make sense but like here for example there are a lot of variety of people that try help .

Also maybe I am wrong maybe I am right I don’t know but for me I think that the reason I have gone so far as to thinking of ending my life is because I never reached out to someone to help me and when I did I didn’t try make myself better. It was like I expected someone to make me just be better. It may be hard to live but isn’t it sometimes worth to live? I mean I only live because I don’t want to be another suicide. I don’t want to be labeled as that. I kind of want to make a difference you know. I don’t know why I put my thoughts on here ok maybe I do it because I was hoping my thoughts would reach someone to help them live.

I’m not trying to be mean or anything oh! And also for those who have illnesses that you think will kill you or maybe it’s because you lost someone so dear to you or maybe you felt like you had no one or I don’t know their are millions of situations I don’t know of but anyways anyone out there that is suicidal ( I’m preaching to a very big crowd) I wanted to say this : you may die soon but wouldn’t you rather live your last days to the most.
I’m really anxious and kind of feel bad about telling people this because I don’t know what you’ve been through and well I don’t really care if it was something small like someone stole you juice box everyone handles things differently and it may hurt you for awhile I am in no position to make you feel bad or lecture anyone because I felt suicidal but I just wanted to know that even if you feel unimportant or anyone makes you feel unimportant just remember : they can’t make you feel the way you do unless you want them to. You need to make the effort to live. If going to therapy and telling them how you feel and what causing it makes you feel better then do it , if going to the a group home will make you feel better then do it . Just don’t bottle up your emotions or hide your pain. If some people thinks it’s a nuisance go find other people to help you get better it just means they weren’t meant to help you. I’m bad at inspiring people this is just what I think. I know we all die someday but maybe we just need to Focus on some happy memories. If you don’t have any ( I hope you do) then make some.

Yes I’m kinda ranting but I just want to save someone from making that mistake of killing themselves. If you notice that your unhappy with what you have then be willing to work hard for what you do want. I know depression sucks , I know what it’s like to want to die, I also have my own problems , it’s my own battle that I have to face.
Also I know this sounds stupid but just write about your feelings why you feel this way and maybe the problems you faced. You can’t change the past but the past can change you if you let it. You see what I’m saying its because you let stuff bother you ….ok I sound mean I’m sorry.but if you do feel suicidal ( duh why are you here then oh wait maybe because someone you loved was er ended their life) the here think :

A person loves you.
Don’t believe me ?can you tell me not one person on this world would care if you died? If you can then your lying you know why? Because their are people out there trying to prevent suicide from happening and if you ended your life it’s just another person dead that wasn’t meant to be dead. People die in car accidents( not on purpose) or go through war.
Then there’s you …you have problems , are willing to face them and try get better ? I know you wouldn’t choose to feel this way but maybe with extra determination on saving your life you can go on. What’s their to life ? Yeah we’re all going to die someday but it doesn’t have to be today now does it?you don’t need to die now. You don’t . Just try reach out to anyone if your reading this the. You obviously have internet so look up places to help you. If you don’t feel comfortable talking with anyone then write it out or sing or I don’t know whatever makes you happy just express those feelings it isn’t really a nice feeling to bottle them all up.
You need to get the demons (per say) out, need to let them all out!
I’m. Getting a little carried away I know haha but yeah…
I don’t know if this helps anyone or if I just made it worse ( if i did then I’m sorry ) but thanks for anyone who read this
Also I know I don’t know your pain but still maybe my words can somehow help you?
Also this is just my thoughts no one needs to make me feel dumb about the way I think.