I don’t know why she won’t let me leave, the schooling that I’ve had hasn’t taught me to write. I will never be able to talk again, either. Sometime ago, right before we moved out to wherever the hell we are, I had managed to escape the place we lived and ran. I never made it far. Maybe two blocks down, she grabbed me (this is about 3 am) dragged me back to the house and tied me down. Then, she continued to drug me and said ” This is gonna hurt but try not to get blood on my shirt would ya?” She took out a sharp knife and pried open my mouth, I was scared and screaming. I didn’t know what she was going to do to me. I started to scream and cry. I was squirming, thrashing around, she told me that if I struggled, it would hurt worse. Then the drugs kicked in and I felt heavy, I couldn’t move but everything seemed more intense; her weight on me, that before was nothing, seemed to be crushing me, the ropes around my wrists and ankles seemed to be sawing them off. Seeing the effects, she pried my mouth open once more, branded her large knife and slashed at my tongue, after what seemed like hours, my tongue had changed from normal to something of a stump at the top of my throat. She had stopped the bleeding, long enough to pack all our stuff and we moved to where we are now. When she isn’t around, I attempt to talk, but all that comes out are pathetic attempts at speak. Maybe one day I can find away to speak, at least now I’ve found away to tell my story, even if no one listens.
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Call the cops maybe^^
no phone, only two things i can access on the internet and on her cell phone she has on her 24/7…..anyway around that :/
You can access the internet but not the phone? If you wanted to contact the cops you could.
Torture, bodily harm, forced captivity. She is breaking several laws right off the bat. You can put her in prison.
And how do I do that? She has everything blocked except for this and a certain school website for school, but she has it so restricted, all it shows is my assignments and how to do them!! Any ideas??
Where do you live?
Any way or ideas to find out where I live
Yo, where do you live? I, and I’m sure many others, would be happy to call ’em up.
That’s the problem, when we moved she had blind folded me and I passed out from blood loss. All I know is that it’s in the woods!! What do I do?
Ok this looks like a prank now. Are you in US?
Its not a prank!!! and yes! Why would this be a prank? I’m 100% serious!!
How the hell are you getting internet access in the middle of the woods? And fear not. See, if you remember what day it was when this shit happened, and what day it is now, and your original location, it might be possible to deduce where you are now.
Of course, if this isn’t a prank, which it honestly is starting to sound like.
It’s not. I think I’ll be able to remember the days, I definitely remember where I used to live and I’m unsure of how I get internet access sometimes it doesn’t work and sometimes it’s really slow. But why would this be a prank, that would be sick and cruel to joke about anything bad, ever, even something small!
Go to fbi.gov and contact em by email
What if it’s blocked? Will it always come up even if everything else is blocked? And won’t they have a bunch of other emails? What if they read it and she kills me before they know? Or don’t believe me? You guys hardly believe me!
How come everything is blocked but suicideproject.org is not blocked?
When we first moved here, my mom would have small times where she would be decent and I had made an account on here (different username and account then this one) awhile ago and I begged her to let me on it. I will sign into this one, and then sign out and sign into my other. She only lets me have it because I will let her go through it and I say it’s because I like to read the stories and because my sister had kept a diary on here and i was trying to find it. ( she has always loved my sister more, once she died she became as bitter and cruel as she is now, she alwasy hit me, but not nearly as bad now..P.S she never actually kept a diary)
Run it through a proxy obviously. Should guve unrestricted access to the rest of the web. Although how you can access SP without these “restrictions” barring you is questionable.
what does “barring” mean
whats a proxy and how do i run something through it and what do i run through it and how do i get a proxy
I’d say that email is probably pointless. The situation is so absurd that whoever ends up reading it will probably roll their eyes and move on.
Your best bet is to give us (some) kind of info. Where are you from? Where (might) you be now?
And I still don’t understand how there’s internet access in the woods.
we have our own internet box thing if that means anything. My mom had once told me that I should be lucky that I will be dying so close to where my bio mom had died, so I must be somewhere around Kileen ( or Killeen) Texas. I should be somewhere in Kileen, out skirts of Kileen or the areas between Kileen and Waco.
What’s your IP address? (It shows up on the comment tab, a set of four figures – xxx.xxx.xx.xx or to that effect)
Barring = Restricted access.
You’d think if she drugged you, you wouldn’t feel a thing. How were the drugs administered exactly?
umm some were with a needle a couple were pills and then i had to drink this weird syrupy liquid that tasted bitter, that the thing that made me frozen! i think
is the IP address the thing with the numbers?
Four sets of figures I mean.
I’m lost about the whole IP address thing. But I might be able to talk to one of the guys my mom brings in, one of them might tell me where I am. I hope its worth it when she finds out!
One of the guys your mom brings in…why doesn’t he do something? Why doesn’t he, like, rescue you.
Well, umm , they only see me when I’m tied to my bed. My mom believes that if she lets all of these guys she likes do whatever they want to me (if you get my drift), they will like her better. So they most likely aren’t going to want to change any of that anytime soon.
…What?
Seriously?
That is insane. Wow. You gotta figure out where you are so the police can do something.
BTW, your mom is a sick fuck.
If I can’t, I’ve been planing something but I need help. My “mom” leaves for about 1 – 1 1/2 – 2 hours each day. she pad locks the inside of the door when shes there and the outside when she leaves. The windows are all nailed shut and the back door is pad locked on the inside and out. If I could find a way out, I might be able to make it over the fence and if I do the words is very thick, she won’t find me!! The only problem is I don’t know how to get outside.
Any Ideas??!?!?!??
Hmm. What kind of windows are they? Get something heavy and just break them and escape.
She has storm windows over every window, the original windows are normal.
here’s what you do: comment in other people’s posts; they (the original poster, not the other commenters) will be able to see your IP address in their dashboard, and one of our more crafty members may be able to ascertain something useful from it…
Or, you can just make a break for it, next time the door is opened. Or you can bust out a window at the beginning of her absence, if you think you’ll need a head start.
she has double windows, the first one is green and is in front of the other window, she called them storm windows or something, I could brake the window but i already tried to break the storm windows, it won’t break. How do you open storm windows?
It’d probably be a good idea to explain what the hell an IP address is, anyway. I apologize for not explaining sooner. Every computer on the internet has one; it’s (sort of) analogous to your house address. Anyway, from there on it gets pretty technical; but the main idea is, if someone had your IP address, we’d have a (rough) estimate of your location, through reverse DNS. From there, the cops in and around that area could be alerted to your situation and someone damn well better be dispatched to help you.
You could also go to:
whatismyip.org
Last I checked, that site just just returned your IP.
I’m sorry but this sounds completely made up If websites are restricted how could you get on here?
Look down the comments, I already explained how it’s not blocked! And it’s not made up! If you think that this is made up, that’s your problem, anyone who would make something up about this is cruel and sick, if you don’t believe this stuff actually happens, you might want to get out into the world more. People go through this stuff everyday, some not as bad as my situation and some, a lot worse! So believe or don’t, I don’t really care, I know the truth and I’ve said the truth and that’s all that matters to me.
not long ago, there was a story in global headlines, about how a neighbor heard suspicious noises, investigated, and ended up rescuing, what, 2-3 women who had been held captive for like 10 years?
There are some incredibly malicious and demented people out there… but it still just seems too horrible to be real.
It’s not implausible that a captor could allow heavily restricted internet access to their captive, especially if said captive doesn’t know how to circumvent the restrictions.
And my previous recommendation still stands. Comment in some of the more resourceful people’s original posts, and they should be able to determine whether anything useful can be discerned from the IP address. If not, you’ll have to take matters into your own hands, and do whatever is necessary to correct your situation.
I don’t know what circumvent means, but sometimes she has weird moments when she was nice, she let me do certain stuff I think because i look identical to my sister.
Crap. I forgot you’re probably blocked from that site. All right, are you on Windows? Mac? Something else entirely?
@clevername, I think I remember reading that story, too. Some people are just sick. In fact, I even read a book – a memoir, if memory serves – about a woman who was raped repeatedly while being held captive. Its title I remember not, unfortunately.
UHHH…HP I think? Is that the type or is it something else
circumvent = “get around” or “bypass”
thank you
Yes, that story was in Cleveland. 2011 I believe.
As far this story goes, I have been watching it. I will rot in hell for not believing it, if it turns out true. If and when I call out all hell and her angels to get you out of there, I will be going to hell if it isn’t true. But I am a couple months out anyway. But do you see the problem of calling in an intervention if this is a sick “crying Wolf” story.
Its not a “crying wolf” story if I made this up, that would mean I’m like my mom. And that will NEVER happen!
Well, worse comes to worse, the police get called and nothing actually happens; but, at least they *WERE* called. If we had a location…
I’m trying with the location thing and why did you do that to the were—-*WERE*