I thought I could trust her with my heart.
She told me she loved me and we had the most amazing relationship together.
Then she left me lonely
I am still in love with everything about her. Her hair. Her face. Her way. She abandoned me, even though she promised she would never leave.
Life has no meaning anymore. She was my everything. Now she is only a distant memory that I’m still in love with.
I know that she will never come back to me
And that is why I will be in pain for the rest of my life
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This, indeed. This, since…October 31. October 31 has always been such a shitty day, but none as shitty as October 31, 2013.
I play this online game, LoL, dont know if you have heard of it. You wonder why I might tell you? Well, let me finish first. The game is pretty competitive and its all about climbing the “skill ladder”. The problem I had and still have to some extent (most other players have got it as well) is that when you lose a match you dont look for the mistakes you did but rather blame your team for your loss. That guy didnt do his job, the other one sucked totally and the last one was only flaming all game long. First of all, thats wrong most of the time, meaning you failed as much as your team did, and secondly even if you played well it neither helps you nor your teammates that you blame them.
That may sound trivial, but I learned a great lesson for my life: Never blame others for anything. Look for what you could have done differently. Even if you already did a way better job than everyone else: Your chances to influence others are limited, but your chances to act differently yourself are unlimited. You cant learn from your mistakes if you dont realize the mistakes.
Now for your situation: You let yourself love someone who apparently wasnt the best choice. You have to realize that it was a mistake, it wasnt her fault that she didnt love you, nor was it anyone else’s fault that ripped you two apart. And even if it was – it doesnt matter. What is important is what you could have done differently. People say that you cant control love, but thats bullshit. You can “cage your emotions” even if that has some by-effects. Once you “release love” it is very hard to control it though, and that is why youre in such a pain – you released your emotions and enabled yourself to love the wrong person.
Of course this wont help you with your current pain, but its what came to my mind when I read your post. And it will tell you to be more careful next time you choose to love someone.
Now at the end, let me tell you that I did the same mistake you did. I let myself love someone and the only thing I gained was rejection and endless nights of staying awake and thinking of her. But I realized my mistake and it will influence how I will handle my emotions in the future. Also, knowing that I probably wont repeat this mistake makes me somehow cope with the whole thing. I will never forget about her, but this realization somewhat put an end to the story.
i tried LoL once. I didn’t really get into it, but i can see the appeal.
I often catch myself learning important life lessons from gaming, as absurd as normal people may think that seems. Games can be pretty complex, and extremely competitive these days. Plus, games are made by people, so there’s a lot of “real life” factors that go into it, many intentionally so.
According to some RPGs getting into romantic relationships is all about gifting unique items to whoever youre interested in. If must admit I havent tried this in real life yet, but it doesnt sound very promising anyways. “Here ya go, a carved stone from China. Can we have sex now?”
Sorry Ruined.
It’s going to take time to get over her.
If you’re under the age of 21, this sucks even more – because your social circle is limited and you probably have to see her at school and stuff. So, yeah, time… and, probably, finding someone else fun and cute to talk to – even just online.
If you’re over 21, go out to the bar and talk to anyone. Even if you’re not “that guy.”
Regardless of your age, I guarantee you there are at least 10 girls smarter, hotter, and/or more fun than your ex was – GO MEET THOSE GIRLS>
the existence of “those girls” does not correlate to their desire to be with you, which may or may not exist or occur.
You *definitely* need to encounter what i would call “a successful relationship,” in order to truly get over your heartbreak. Other people might tell you otherwise, but they’re mostly just trying to make you believe you will be okay even without finding anyone else. You might be able to stabilize alone, and you will indeed need some alone time to sort yourself out… but staying alone will impede your recovery, after a certain point.
I gotta give props to CDL for something i suppose i hadn’t thought about:
Letting it go, versus controlling it. You can’t have both. Your feelings probably won’t just stop, just by deciding not to control them. But if you still need to control them, then letting it go will interfere with that, and those uncontrolled feelings will continue to affect you in ways you might not be ready to handle.
The most important thing in your near future is that you don’t let depression degrade your physical condition. Force yourself to maintain hygiene, do activities, and stay nourished. Letting yourself go, isn’t going to help you in the long run. It might even put you in an even worse situation, or possibly even prevent you from having another chance with someone else.
I find that letting go is the only solution, as everything else fails. I try so hard to make things better with her, its almost like my whole world revolves around her even though we dont talk that much anymore. I try my hardest, and never get any satisfaction from it. I think i need to let go of the whole situation, and just get over it completely. That way i can eliminate all hope and move on completely, rather than dragging myself through this endless muddy ditch of heartbreak and despair.
The problem with me, is i get attached far too easily. So after a long relationship like this, it is physically impossible for me to see any other girl in “that way”. I mean this, too. I cant flirt with anyone else or text them or anything, i only have eyes for HER. thats going to be the hardest part about moving on.