I mean, I may have friends. Maybe people out there care for me, but I’m very overhelmed by sadness that I can’t see it, or believe it. Still, being with my “friends” is nothing, I feel alone with them, I feel alone without them… I’m such a mess. I don’t deserve these people. Some care on their own different way, but I can’t see it. I sound like an attention seeker don’t I? I’m not. Seriously.
Still, every single person I have met has hurt me in one way or another. Maybe I’m too sensible. I don’t know. I’m a goddamn disaster. I feel worthless. I can’t talk about this with anyone. I’m growing appart from everybody. Maybe that’s the best. I feel alone, even surrounded by so many people. One day they’ll get tired from me and I’ll really learn what’s it like to be alone.
I’m sorry if my problem sounds really really stupid, but that’s how I feel and I can’t get over it.
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Not stupid at all. I feel the same way around people. There are only like 2 people who don’t make feel alone, but I just can’t tell them how depressed I’m because that’s most likely gonna scare them off. So whenever I’m with them I act “normal”. people have hurt me so much that I’m broken in a million pieces and I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore