Jadey,

Your parents would rather have you alive and failing school than to have you dead. Believe me! My son felt the same way you do throughout most of his high school years. He felt like nothing was going right in his life. He felt like he couldn’t tell me what he was going through. He didn’t want me to feel disappointed in him. I thought I had lost him when he was 18 years old (he told his girlfriend that he was going to kill himself). When I read his suicide note I felt like my heart was ripped out of my body.

I can tell you right now, that there is nothing worse for a parent than to know that their child committed suicide. You need to quit college. You need to give yourself some time to relax, to just get a job somewhere (it doesn’t have to be glamorous or long-term), you don’t need to put pressure on yourself, or to let your parents or teachers, or anyone else put pressure on you.

My son is now 23 years old – he completed highschool but didn’t go to college, he worked various jobs (retail, fast food, bakery, factory), he’s moved around to three different cities, he’s had three serious girlfriends… He just started a new job today working with computers (he’s good with computers). During the darkest moments of his life, he could never have imagined that his life would get easier, but it has. Your life will get easier too. Believe it!!!