better here than out there

LetItGo,

Ha! I agree 🙂 I always wonder why people hate me so much in real life but not on the internet. I’m the same person. My respect is the same, I talk the same, I am still me. I learned the internet is not useless. It gives me ways to kill myself but it also leads to communication with others that make me feel like I’m not alone. I’ve seen both good and bad, but I’m alone without it. It’s my source of communication.

Here’s the thing, if the outside world was just as good as the internet, I would take the outside world. It is not that I like sitting here motionless while living my life or anything. But yes, unfortunately, the outside world [for some of us] just sucks way too much, and therefore we choose the place where people care . . . and where people can’t hurt you [besides words, but we’re not forced to connect with those].

I’m beginning to have second thoughts now. Does this even mean anything? Do I even mean anything? Does the fact that I lost everything in real life and only have pain to gain mean anything? Yeah – it means I don’t want to be here. I want to be on the internet though. Then I think ‘will the good i find here ever impact real life at all . . .?’

And who knows. Maybe you do.

But good luck for your real world life too 🙂