What do you do when suddenly the person who meant the world to you, is gone. When you’ve shared everything with that person, built up trust in them, grew with them, gave them all of you.. shared all your “firsts” with them because you knew they would be there forever and you knew them so well – or you thought you did. You “knew” they would never betray you or lie to you because they loved you and you had so much confidence in it that there was absolutely no questioning it. You do everything for that person, for years they are your best friend […]
Holy fuck, where to start.
Today was weird. I just kind of went with it. I didn’t imagine that anything like today would happen ever again. You’re so much different than the last time. Each time I see you, you change a little bi more. You’re, different.
I can feel the positivity burst from you. Holy shit, overwhelming. We barely spoke but It wasn’t needed. We caught up with each other today. I hope that I don’t affect anything for you again. But I can’t promise something that I don’t know if I can keep.
You look a lot better than before, healthier. You present yourself totally different. […]
To all my mates at Suicide Project,do not let the world bring you down.Goodluck and Godspeed to you all.
I’ve had a long life full of pain. It wears you down. I’ve tried for so long, only to fail over and over. I just don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this. I don’t see the point anymore.
I want to pin you down
and kiss the breath out of your lungs
You’re perfect-
I mean it
To me, you always will be.
I knew that you were a beautiful person
From the moment I met you-
I could feel it.
I think-
you complete me.
The void is gone
when I’m with you.
Nothing hurts anymore.
I think-
I was wrong
It’s too much
You’re too much,
I just-
I want to be there for you,
I really do
And I want to love you
Unconditionally,
But
I’ve let you down
(too many times).
I know I promised,
but as you said,
I’m like the rest.
You should hate me.
Why don’t you hate me?
Just
Stop
Please
I think-
It’s better we never speak again
I AM DEATH! Make way one and all
Give me way, for here’s my queue
I am the cliff from which you will fall
From the tears of the beloved, I’ll make myself a devil’s brew.
I’m here, there, I’m everywhere;
Don’t try escaping, for your destiny is locked and I have the key
A baby, a mother, a wee puppy, your lover?
This is the face I use to show I care
Fight me not, just let it be.
I make big men cry,
I make demons laugh
I’ll take your loved ones, don’t ask me why
For like a carpenter does with wood, from you I’ll make a craft.
Come to me, for I have the […]
An integral part of ‘ building your exoskeleton’ is letting go of all the hurt, pain and sorrow. Letting go doesn’t necessarily mean that you vow to forget the past,because doing such things.may result in the repetition of similar scenarios. The letting go to which I now refer to is the instance of no longer allowing past transgressions to weigh you down. In essence, an individual needs to accept and positively use past horrors as a building block to your new and improved self.
For decades, modern medicine has intentionally introduce strains of ailments to individuals, to allow for the creation of an […]
I failed you baby, on 1-18-15 I fucked up and I failed you. I wasn’t there for you when you really needed me, my bipolar wasn’t medicated or known yet and I freaked out, I made the worse/stupidest mistake of my life and I kicked you out our house when you needed me. I failed you in every way possible as your man that day, and I failed our lil family… I tore it apart. I’m the reason we’re not together anymore. I got help, I knew something was wrong and I got help…found out I’m bipolar and have anxiety, I go to therapy/ counseling […]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66GHz-H4k6M
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything
What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar’s chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still […]
You could have it all, my empire of dirt,
I will let you down, I will make you hurt,
If I could start again, a million miles away,
I would keep myself, I would find a way.
The only way to love me is to never, ever know me.
If I only knew what to say, someone would actually listen.
If I only cared enough to try, someone would be here with me.
If I only fought harder, maybe I wouldn’t be this.
But everyone gives up eventually, and I guess I gave up a long time ago.
It’s too late for me now.
It’s time to become someone else.
And when I’ve […]
I have never been alright and I never will be alright.
And tonight I lack the strength to even move
When you walked, now watch me die
But I know this is harder for you
For love has let you down and come on
And no, you’re not alone
And the road ahead is lined with broken dreams
So walk, yeah, walk on by
And I failed to give you everything you need
For the fear’s behind your eyes
When I cant feel you
I’m not alright, not alright
When I cant heal you
I’m not alright, I’m not alright, I’m not alright
When I cant feel you
I’m […]
you know, i posted a few times, and i got really nice people commenting, but then there’s the others blunter ones. i’m not hating on yall, i’m not blaming on yall, in fact, i like your bluntness, don’t lose your bluntness. but when you tell me i need to “learn how to enjoy life without depending so much on other people”, i’m sure you meant to help me. i’m sure you’re just sick of this person who is so fucking needy. but do you think i haven’t tried? how can i depend on myself when all i do is make myself feel miserable? do you […]
Don’t you just love those nights people trying to pull you down making you feel stupid for saying it in the first place. When you already got fucking enough on ur mind as it is. I am about to lose it……
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you down and out
It’s where you ought to stay
Well after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar’s just another blow
So fix your eyes […]
Dear Lover,
I am so sorry that I couldn’t be a better girl for you. I am so sorry that I never measured up to the kind of girl you wanted me to be. I am so deeply sorry that I disappoint you on a daily basis with every screwup I manage to make. I am so sorry that I get scared to lose you, and I tak it out on you. I am so sorry. You deserve so much better than what I give you. You deserve a good girl who isn’t so broken inside, one who doesn’t let you down. You deserve a girl […]
i think i might of fucked up this friendship super bad and im not sure if you come here anymore, or under a different name so i wont see you suffering, but, im sorry i didnt make more of an effort, i find it hard sometimes,but im not going to make excuses, it was shitty of me to do when you were suffering, and i wish i could go back and call you more, instead of waiting a week to call you, then letting it go when you didnt pick up,
i wish i tried to call you 5 times that night more even, instead of […]
Never rely on other people. They will only let you down.
I came to the forest to determine why. Why life? Why death? When depression sucks you down like the Le Brea tar pits, you can no longer see the ground warmed by the morning sun. You see those who have come before you mired in the sticky, intractable black ***. The skeletons of those who didn’t make it are all around you. Charles Boyer, Vincent van Gogh, Sylvia Plath, Ernest Hemingway, Virginia Woolf. Robin Williams, so close, you could almost touch him. A delicate balance…when pain exceeds coping resources.
For the prosecution:
– 41 years of depression
– Crimes against humanity committed to me
– Committed […]
If you have a broken smile and scars on your skin, stop and read this.
You’re beautiful/ handsome and you can do this. You can make it through today and every day afterwards because guess what?
You’re worth it. You’re worth every moment of life and every breath you take is just showing everyone who has ever put you down that you win, not them. Don’t ever give up.
HELP!!! Please see the signs, i need help, support. I am sick, depression is killing me, slowly, surely. When I talk you ignore and pretend everything is fine. You judge and blame me for being weak. All those times I stopped crying and pretended I was fine, all those times I confused myself by not permitting myself to show emotion was because of you. I am afraid of sharing now. Most of the times I am numb I don’t know what I’m feeling or who i am. I have killed myself slowly emotionally, because when I needed help, understanding, sharing,love you didn’t give it to […]
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