No need for fancy explanations. I wish to die, and I’ve chosen dehydration as my way to go. I just wanted it to be known somewhere that my death was voluntary.
A couple of the guys in my unit decided to ignore every soldier’s worst enemy and abstain from water over a three day period. That’s three days of intense activity and major loss of sweat/bodily fluid. Anyway, they were both shipped off to the rear and ended up staying in hospital for a few days.
Dehydration is no joke. You’ll slowly start seeing atrophy and loss of brain functions, oozing greenish liquid seep from your body…all that fucked up shit. Damn…y’all more ballsy than me that’s for sure. But, well good luck I suppose. With whatever you may do.
I never quite understood that disease. Is it just a desire not to eat?
People normally end up dying from anorexia anyway. I guess that’s why you mention “voluntary” when describing dehydration in your post.
I’ve read some story where someone wanted to keep losing weight and trying to hide it from doctors. They had apparently hooked her up to a feeding tube for several days, adding about 70 pounds of body weight, so they started monitoring her. I didn’t quite understand what the goal was, if it wasn’t suicide.
Anorexia is about control. Having no control over the other parts of their lives, they turn to one of the few things they can control: what goes into their mouths. They begin to associate ‘eating less’ with ‘success’ and the less they eat, the more empowered they feel in their day to day lives. The definition of ‘less’ goes from 1000 calories down to 300 or less, but when they try to gain weight, they feel so out of control and powerless that they literally become incapable of normal social function until they feel in control again. It’s an ever descending nightmare through malnutrition and the sicknesses related to it.
Most people have what I like to call ‘an anorexic mindset’. Be it family, friends, music, a hobby, a job, or something else, there are certain things in everyone’s lives that give them a sense of control. Starvation gives an anorexic control.
When the average human loses their sense of control, i.e. their family dies, they get fired, and lose their house, car, and dog, they lose their sanity as well. It’s the same way with anorexia, except the focus is on food rather than a loved one or job.
Also, that story you read is bogus. It is physically impossible to gain 70 pounds in a few days, even with massive caloric intake and water retention. Also, most stories like that are 10% factual, and 90% over-dramatization and misunderstanding. That is why so few people actually understand anorexia and eating disorders in general.
Man….that just sounds like an awful way to go. I’m hoping to go by jumping out of a building. A little more instantaneous, hopefully. I have been without water for about three days and it became overwhelming. I got to the point where the only, literally the only thing I could think about was water. I finally made it to a bathroom and drank out of a dirty faucet and was overjoyed with that nasty water. People were looking at me funny. Yeah I’d like to die by dehydration but it aint gonna happen. It’s like, put your hand on a hot stove and see how long you can keep it there. You might really want to keep it there but you can’t. When I was deprived of water my bladder also became sick, dark colored pee with irritated bladder.
I only wish there were more Dr. Kevorkians in the world. He wanted people to be able to die without having to go through shit like this.
“When the average human loses their sense of control, i.e. their family dies, they get fired, and lose their house, car, and dog, they lose their sanity as well.”
Just had to comment on that line… i agree completely. Couldn’t have find a better way of expressing it. Thanks for putting into simple words something that i’ve been trying to explain to some people around me for a while. Maybe if it sounds obvious it’s not easy finding the right words for “normal” people to understand it.
As for anorexia, i have someone close to me that suffers from it, really young, but has been struggling with it for almost as long as you have. Thanks for explaining that it is about control, now that i see the situation with that pov it just makes sense to me. I know any “nice words” i say won’t change it (and it’s an awful condition), but i really do wish you the best.
I’m so sorry about your friend. Has she tried all the usual therapies? If none of them worked, then I suggest she go on a spur of the moment road trip. Something about entirely new scenery soothes the soul. For a few years, before I got really physically ill, I would take one or two ED patients at a time on a cross country trip in my van, and we would stay out there for as long as we had to until their perspectives on life began to change. It was amazing how well and quickly it worked, like filling their minds with so much new information that it washed out so much of the negativity from their ED. Most of them recovered fully.
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A couple of the guys in my unit decided to ignore every soldier’s worst enemy and abstain from water over a three day period. That’s three days of intense activity and major loss of sweat/bodily fluid. Anyway, they were both shipped off to the rear and ended up staying in hospital for a few days.
Dehydration is no joke. You’ll slowly start seeing atrophy and loss of brain functions, oozing greenish liquid seep from your body…all that fucked up shit. Damn…y’all more ballsy than me that’s for sure. But, well good luck I suppose. With whatever you may do.
I have been dealing with severe anorexia for the past 9 years. What you just described has been my life for half a decade.
I never quite understood that disease. Is it just a desire not to eat?
People normally end up dying from anorexia anyway. I guess that’s why you mention “voluntary” when describing dehydration in your post.
I’ve read some story where someone wanted to keep losing weight and trying to hide it from doctors. They had apparently hooked her up to a feeding tube for several days, adding about 70 pounds of body weight, so they started monitoring her. I didn’t quite understand what the goal was, if it wasn’t suicide.
Anorexia is about control. Having no control over the other parts of their lives, they turn to one of the few things they can control: what goes into their mouths. They begin to associate ‘eating less’ with ‘success’ and the less they eat, the more empowered they feel in their day to day lives. The definition of ‘less’ goes from 1000 calories down to 300 or less, but when they try to gain weight, they feel so out of control and powerless that they literally become incapable of normal social function until they feel in control again. It’s an ever descending nightmare through malnutrition and the sicknesses related to it.
Most people have what I like to call ‘an anorexic mindset’. Be it family, friends, music, a hobby, a job, or something else, there are certain things in everyone’s lives that give them a sense of control. Starvation gives an anorexic control.
When the average human loses their sense of control, i.e. their family dies, they get fired, and lose their house, car, and dog, they lose their sanity as well. It’s the same way with anorexia, except the focus is on food rather than a loved one or job.
Also, that story you read is bogus. It is physically impossible to gain 70 pounds in a few days, even with massive caloric intake and water retention. Also, most stories like that are 10% factual, and 90% over-dramatization and misunderstanding. That is why so few people actually understand anorexia and eating disorders in general.
Man….that just sounds like an awful way to go. I’m hoping to go by jumping out of a building. A little more instantaneous, hopefully. I have been without water for about three days and it became overwhelming. I got to the point where the only, literally the only thing I could think about was water. I finally made it to a bathroom and drank out of a dirty faucet and was overjoyed with that nasty water. People were looking at me funny. Yeah I’d like to die by dehydration but it aint gonna happen. It’s like, put your hand on a hot stove and see how long you can keep it there. You might really want to keep it there but you can’t. When I was deprived of water my bladder also became sick, dark colored pee with irritated bladder.
I only wish there were more Dr. Kevorkians in the world. He wanted people to be able to die without having to go through shit like this.
“When the average human loses their sense of control, i.e. their family dies, they get fired, and lose their house, car, and dog, they lose their sanity as well.”
Just had to comment on that line… i agree completely. Couldn’t have find a better way of expressing it. Thanks for putting into simple words something that i’ve been trying to explain to some people around me for a while. Maybe if it sounds obvious it’s not easy finding the right words for “normal” people to understand it.
As for anorexia, i have someone close to me that suffers from it, really young, but has been struggling with it for almost as long as you have. Thanks for explaining that it is about control, now that i see the situation with that pov it just makes sense to me. I know any “nice words” i say won’t change it (and it’s an awful condition), but i really do wish you the best.
I’m so sorry about your friend. Has she tried all the usual therapies? If none of them worked, then I suggest she go on a spur of the moment road trip. Something about entirely new scenery soothes the soul. For a few years, before I got really physically ill, I would take one or two ED patients at a time on a cross country trip in my van, and we would stay out there for as long as we had to until their perspectives on life began to change. It was amazing how well and quickly it worked, like filling their minds with so much new information that it washed out so much of the negativity from their ED. Most of them recovered fully.