I’m slipping off the edge again, I feel like every where i turn it’s gonna be another round of how to tear down the weird girl. It’s like they only come after me and I don’t know why. I don’t understand why it is such a bad thing to be different from the others. Why should it matter that I like a lot of eyeliner, or that the bottom half of my hair is a different color every two weeks. why should it matter to anyone? It’s not like my actions have a direct cause on your life. It’s not like I plan my life for the soul purpose in life is to destroy you the way you’re destroying me now. I can’t even walk through the hall ways without someone pointing and laughing at me or whispering to their best friend about me. For some reason my “friends” left me all alone because they heard a rumor that I was a slut that would sleep with anything that had money. I’m spiraling slowly down a pit and every time I think I can climb my way out someone or something cuts the rope or steps on my hands. I don’t know what to do any more, i’m so lost and I don’t know if i can be found.
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I’m sorry that your friends, those you felt you could trust, left you over some petty rumour. That just shows that they were not true friends.
Express yourself the way you want to and if yours is through your appearance then that is YOUR choice. I can see that you have low self confidence. Believe in yourself. Love yourself. Do not care what others have to say about you. Focus on what satisfies you. Jealousy and boredom are usually the reasons people talk about others in a negative way. I’m here if you ever need to talk.
Lots of Love.
thanks that’s nice of you, and you’re right I don’t have any confidence, and I want to express myself but I’m scared and I don’t know if I can
Have you ever wanted to scream? Scream at yourself, the people who taught you and scream because you believe you won’t ever be good enough?
I scream every single day. I know how you feel. I really do. But you have got to get that confidence up for nobody else but YOURSELF. You’re just as important as the rest of us. You deserve to express yourself the way everybody else does.
But I don’t know how to do that! I don’t know how to let people in, I don’t know how to ignore all those people who hate me, I just don’t know how to build my self up when I know others are just going to tear me down over and over again
You have got to take it one step at a time. First of all, IGNORE those who are causing you to feel as low as you are. For every negative thing they say, you need to think up positive things about yourself. Block their presence physically, mentally and spiritually. Only YOU can do this. It’s inevitable that people will bring you down – it happens to all of us. But you’ve got to remember that this is out of spite, jealousy and boredom. Also, find some friends who ACTUALLY care about you.
thanks for talking to me I haven’t had a conversation with someone in a long time
You’re welcome. Like I said before, I’m here if you want to converse. Lots of Love.
do you wanna email?
It is completely up to you. I’m as free as the wind in an open field. If you sway me towards a certain way, I will soon follow. 🙂
😀 I’d like to, do you see my email address under my name on the other comment? I can email you first if you want
Sure.
The world is a slut full of trained dogs and mindless cattle. You are unique, which is beautiful. We do not need to conform to be happy, only true happiness can be found when we are true to ourselves. Fuck what they say about you, in the future they will be miserable creatures devoid of any creativity or individuality. You though, I imagine you will be one of the great artists painting a beautiful mural on the canvas of the Earth. The world needs more artists to make it colorful. Don’t go, not just yet.
thanks you just made my day
I’m glad to hear it. 🙂