If I accept myself and my life- will that stop me from not trying to solve my Major Problem that’s causing me a great deal of shame and sense of worthlessness?
If I don’t, won’t that just make me forever miserable?
When my efforts fail and fail and nothing gets better, of course I want to end it all.
Then something may snap me out of that mood, but it is only temporary.
Because my efforts will still fail and fail and for as long as they fail will I have no hope and for as long as there is now hope will I want to leave…
Yet if I just accept things, I might not try at all. And then I will feel bad for not trying. So it’s feeling bad for not trying or not trying enough.
I just cannot find the balance.
I don’t want to touch on the Issue because then I will snap into Wanna Die Mode. And if I don’t acknowledge it nothing will happen… This has been driving me crazy for so long! Does anybody understand?
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Sure. I went to a DBT counselor, she gave me “instructions” on how to accept what is and strive for better. It has made a world of difference. I guess you could say it is an instruction manual for my life. I can send you a copy of the program to general mail at your local post office if you want. It’s a great program. Let me know.