So lately all my friends want me to help them with relationships of their own. I don’t know all the answers sometime and thats what usually makes me feel bad. When i can’t find out how to help i feel bad i cry and just go on a rampage. One of my exs still a very good friend of mine started to tell me to focus on my own relationship. For some reason i never listened but now a days all i try and do is be there for them. But then my so called friends make me feel like crap cause im not helping them in any way. Well of course fucking not okay i have a life i have a relationship okay i need to focus on my own if i want to be happy. See im not always going to be in their lives so they need to sort of learn to just talk to each other and work it out. I dont want to be the one that has to feel bad when everything goes down the drain cause i couldnt help. Im not going to blame for them anymore. Not their relationships or others. I learned how to deal with mine so why cant they. Im still trying to be there for them but then they just say oh you’re not even helping you’re just pretending. Thats what gets to me like why the fuck in this whole entire world would i pretend. If i was i wouldnt be sitting there right next to you listening to you while giving you hugs and patting and petting your head and give you shit to make you feel like it wasnt your fault. Like why the fuck would i do that im not that fucking type to be doing that shit cause that….thats just fucked up. So next time when im there next to you trying to help you dont go saying im fucking pretending okay.
My feelings of this topic out. I feel better thanks for reading.
P.s I will listen and give advice all im saying is just not to say im pretending or being fake. Mkay bye.
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Thanks for posting, it was an interesting read for a Tuesday night. I will never fully understand relationships and appreciate them for the hard work and commitment they are supposedly built upon, simply because we always want something in return. Nothing in this world is given on the basis of some mythical “mutual understanding” nor because they have an enormous heart and other such bullshit musings. Either your friends need to figure out their relationship between themselves and their partner, or just call it quits altogether. It’s simple really.
On the topic of “fake”; nothing is true in this world, only if you believe it to be. Not that I’m questioning your own personal integrity, but that’s just how I see it. Happy trails.
hey its ok we all have our opinions dude
Hey, Samantha. Sounds nice that you care about your friends and that you wanna help them out. But they should really be appreciative for you putting in the effort. You don’t owe it to them to give them advice only to be accused for not caring afterwards. And… do they ever even try to do what you tell them? 🙂 I know you’re not fake. The way you tried to get close to Adam even if he looked like he was cold in the beginning. You really cared! Even for a stranger. So next time when one of your friends asks for advice and then calls you fake just tell them to go ask someone else if your advice is not good enough. That simple!
I hope you’re feeling better now and… sorry for not responding for a while… I’ve been pretty busy lately. Our timezones don’t overlap too much either. I’m from Romania, by the way. 🙂
We were talking about your friend Adam the other day. I respect and understand your hatred for the church… and for good reason, cause it only spreads lies and hate. I wanted to ask you this though: Do you believe in a heaven or a hell? Or any kind of afterlife?
that true it is simple but i can never wanna leave um behind and feel how i felt always being the one left out or behind. haha and wow so far its alright though dont worry. ya thats how church is hahah but i dont judge as long as they dont judge me. Actually i dont even know what i believe anymore or what to believe. i think maybe incarnation.
I totally get how you feel. One of the worst things for people to do is disregard your efforts. My parents do it all the time. Im kind of in the same spot that youre in. All my friends ask my for relationship advice, but i seriously need to sort out shit in my own relationship, cuz right now it isnt going so well. If you ever need to talk, you can email me or something: frejashinepaws@gmail.com
Btw i feel like ive seen your username on some other site…cant figue out which one though…
ya you see what i mean hahah. o i have devian art tumblr twitter mocospace meetme facebook revebnation vampire freaks and here hahah
Hey Samantha. I asked you if you believe in an afterlife cause I was curious… do you ever think about what happened to your friend Adam and to your other friends that have died? Do you think about where they’re now or if you’ll ever see them again?
actually no
You said that you might believe in reincarnation. Do you think that they may have been born again in other bodies?
ya maybe