This is it for me split from my missus after 18 years now living in a crummy bedsit on my own. I have no family and im 38 years old with nothing to look forward to. The thought of this being the rest ov my life!! Now found out my ex has cancer but wants nothing from me & wont even talk to me so i dont no whats going on. And iv never been so scared in my life. So theres only one solution for me and iv accepted it.
So i either:
1. Drink bottle whiskey and drop from my 7th floor balcony.
2. Drink bottle whiskey and few packs of pills i purchased earlier.
3. Take a straight razor to my wrists (upwards not across)
Not here for sympathy vote or to be talked around iv accepted what has to be done you could call this my last testament iv written a note which will be found alongside me.
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And what if none of that works? What if you survive and you make your ex feel like shit because she blames herself? What if she is pushing you away so she doesn’t hurt you? Think first.
Curious as to why option 3 doesn’t include whiskey…
Rainbow has a point.
Your Ex has cancer – her reactions to that must be huge and scary — may make her confused about her feelings for you. She may change her mind.
You really dont think iv thought all this! Iv considered every option i have children with her but when i try to ring or text to find out whats going on she gets them to basically tell me to f**k off!! And if non ov those 3 options dont work ill think of another way that will work.
It maybe selfish/cowardly but she’ll get over it as it seems like after 18 yrs i dont mean anything to her anymore.
My kids have other family members to help them im not needed anymore.
And so you no we finished before she found out about the cancer i only found out from rumours on the estate she was using a stick and wheelchair and was spendin alot ov time in hospital.
It hurts that im left out in the cold about it its not knowing thats f**kin with my head.
I’m sorry that you’ve been shut out. Was the split mutual?
How old are your kids?
maybe not mutual, but were the reasons understood?
Shes a GREAT mother if it wasnt for her i dont no how the kids would have turned out!
Ill never take that away from her ever.
The splt was kind ov mutual it was my fault i didnt no wot i had till it was gone through xbox,weed and my laziness i fucked it all up now i have nothing left!! My kids are basically teenagers now.
And yes i feel guilty for leaving them behind but the world will be better off without me in it..
This isnt a split second decision its been going around my head for months i thought moving out peacefully & getting a job would help but it didnt.
Your kids probably aren’t going to see it that way… Your ex has cancer, and can potentially die from it. Your decision will probably kill you, and they could be left orphans. There are people on this site who’s parents killed themselves, and quite honestly I think it contributed to the problems they had.
Just try to hang on for a bit longer. Have patience, and calmly try to be a part of what’s going on. If she continues to shut you out on the cancer side, don’t push the issue and still be a part of your kids lives.
They need their father.
Iv tried for months i accepted we were finished so no issue there but all i get is abuse from kids because all shes done is slag me off to them and she refuses to talk to me.
I cant hang on each day just eats away at me im beginning to despise life and everyone in it.
I see familys walkin around having fun and i hate them!!
I dont want to be bitter but cant help it.
At some point they will realize what she’s doing and come around. do you have any mutual friends with your ex that you could talk to about the kids, so you could try to have a sit down with her?
“look, I understand that you don’t want to be a part of my life. But they are my kids too. I’m still here, and I deserve to be a part of their life. Don’t let what happened between us affect my relationship with them.” Or something.
Man just think about it , I knw u feel worse but still first try to make a solution for it and afterwards think about suicide. Dude just think about it suicide is a sin !!! I know what I say is just some shit for u but still first think. !!!
Im past caring about sin
You no the saying only god can judge me ill deal with that when i get there
Tried everything! Theres nothing left
Look Freeroma thanks for chattin and trying but there is no other way
So im going to sign off now catch u on the other side.