no one needs me

from the moment I could talk, all ive ever wanted was to be helpful to someone, and make them happy, actually be worth something….. yet all my life I have felt that I never help anyone….I feel like no matter how hard I try, I will always remain usless and worthless….I feel like no one ever wants or needs me, and I don’t feel loved….. I just want to make someone smile…… but all I ever do is hurt them and make them angry……nobody loves me, nobody cares about me…..I just wish I could die….it would spare everyone from wasting their valuble effort on someone as meaningless as me………It would be better off if I was dead… I hurt people more simply by existing………….I don’t even know why I try to live anymore…….there is no purpouse, no reson for me to exist beause I am good at nothing exept being a falure…..