I have never felt sad about a suicide. By the time I graduated high school, two of my best friends had killed themselves and even at that young age I never felt sad. Confused, yes. But in my heart I knew that suicide marks the end of a problem, and so… much like divorce in the case of an abusive marriage, it’s a good thing even though humans instinctively say “how awful”.
Humans at large cannot perceive the problem, so all they see is the solution which they don’t agree with. If you didn’t know that a woman was being mugged, and all you saw was the woman mace some guy on the street, you would probably be angry at that woman. In the case of suicide, people become angry at the person who did it because they can’t understand the insufferable pain that made them do it. That’s why suicide has the stigma of being “selfish”, “wrong”, “cowardly”, blah blah blah. It’s because they have no clue what led up to it.
Well you know what? I am sad for all of you who are suffering right now. If you happen to choose suicide and go through with it, that won’t be the sad part. The sad part is what happens up until that moment. But everything after is bliss.
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It’s the very same people who’ll judge me for committing suicide that are driving me to it. The tragedy has already happened, and where are the people who care right now? It’s not suddenly a tragedy once we decide to end it.
But the bottom line is that nothing matters, an eternity of nothingness follows our existence. That’s why I’m not afraid of anything anymore. In the words of tyler durden, “it’s only after we’ve lost everything that we’re free to do anything”.
Well if there are people driving you to suicide your problem is resolvable by getting away from those people.
It’s a different matter when you hate you own life intrinsically and yourself and you can’t change who you are. If there’s nothing else wrong aside from the people in your life, then I’d rather be in your situation than mine. I can’t get away from myself/my body who I am which is the source of my unhappiness.
But you are right about the rest of it….fortunately I am an atheist so I know once I’m dead there will be nothingness for me.
I have the same or worse issues about myself… I have the mental age and body of a teenager (at best), I have little personality and can’t learn to break free from my circumstances. But I wouldn’t want to kill myself for these faults if it weren’t for people (not a single group but people in general) attacking me for who/what I am for things I can’t change.
Great post, very well said OP.
This is beautiful and so so true 🙂