I’ve waited till now to make my first post, simply because the first two days without food and water has been relatively easy. Now the third day, I honestly have no desire for food though swallowing is becoming difficult. I am starting to experience headaches, probably because of lack of food and even getting down ibuprophren without water is difficult. It would be so much easier if the people that made the decisions towards legalizing euthanasia weren’t making the decisions. It’s easy to want to live when you have a 100k a year job house, wife, children and even family and friends. I have none of those things, save one friend who is being supportive of me even though I don’t think he fully understands my choice. It should be my right to have “the peaceful pill” as a alternative to this and having to endure this when I’m not sure even how long it will take. I feel the decision to terminate my life should be only between me God(s). I hope that weighing only 130 lbs and the lack of food and water will accelerate this so I can move on.
Note: Halfway through through the day and the lower part of my back is now sore and tender where my kidneys are, I’m guessing from lack of water. I gave in and drank about a half cup of water and now hate myself even more for giving in. I really wish there was a non-violent less painful way for all of this to end.
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I think it takes a long time. I am considering starvation as a choice again too. I tried it in the past. After 3 weeks of absolutely no food I was still alive, and my starting weight was about 90 lbs. But I did drink some water. Maybe it was a mistake. The worst time was at night because hunger pangs would not let me sleep.
Remember, you still have a friend, I don’t have anybody. I think your death would really sadden your friend.
My understanding is abstinence from water will accelerate starvation/dehydration immensely. I read something about without water it can take as little as 5 days. I guess there we will see. I doubt I will be missed by him, he has plenty of other friends that are there to take my place.
Well, water is definitely very important.
A friend’s suicide is always very, very sad. One of my friends committed suicide last year – he had serious reasons, but I am still in shock….
PS: We are not supposed to describe methods in detail…. Everybody knows what starvation is of course, but we are not supposed to go into details… 🙁
isn’t there a easier way? it sounds so painful for you, no one deserves that
It is more than anyone will know, there is nothing worse than dying and being alone. I wish there was another way but I have failed at everything I have tried, school, relationships, friendships, and my own family that I seldom hear from. I truly just want it to end.
There are other ways, look on the internet and you’ll see how bad this method is, my suggestion is to abandon the attempt, I know it’s your decision but if you want to end it surely doing so with as little pain as possible, why do this to yourself, are you trying to punish yourself and for what reason?
If I violated any rules please let me know where so I can edit and remove it. I have no desire to breach the rules of the site.
most other methods are violent and I would prefer to not have anyone go through anything more graphic than need be and I don’t believe in violence. Maybe this song will help you understand:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0mej3rDvhk
I watched and understand, when its time, I think suicide is justifiable if all other avenues fails but it’s this method, it’s just too drastic, please, if you have even the slightest doubt in your mind then give up and talk instead, I wish you would anyway.
I wish I could, I honestly do.. I would like to find one thing in humanity that is good and isn’t corrupt but I am where I just can’t see anything good in this world anymore..
Having tried it myself I can confirm that it is not funny, particularly at night as I said… It took so long in my case because I had some water and one day after 20 days or so I decided to go for a walk and sort of collapsed although it was only for a few seconds. Unfortunately they called a doctor and then you can imagine what happened. 🙁