I feel so close to committing suicide, as if at any second I could just jump into the car and drive to my suicide location. I know I’m better off dead, I’m a nobody and when I’m alive I’m just a burden on my family and a scab to society but I feel death and I’m scared. I’ve always been a coward and it’s hard to accept that soon i’m going to inject myself with heroin and jump from the highest building I can find. I don’t want to die but I don’t belong in this world and there is no recourse for me. I’d always cling to hope but I can’t find any. I have nothing left… no friends, family, money, girlfriend and I’m mentally ill with agoraphobia, depression and anxiety. I’ve the body and mental age of a child and there is no chance of a better future, as much as I desire and have fought for it. How do I get through this? Should I try to run and if so where should I go? I don’t feel there’s anywhere in this world I can feel safe. Is my method painless… to inject half a gram of heroin and fall back from a 10 story building? Does anyone know if it’s likely to be an instant death? Because it’s about to happen to me :'(
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Hey you stop right fucking now, i just made an account on this fucking thing to tell you, killing yourself is NOT worth it, not in ANY situation, i’m sorry that you are hurting and i can’t say i know how you feel because i have no fucking clue, but if you need someone to talk to im here add me on facebook or something i don’t care just please don’t fucking do it <3
I’m sorry for my language, please don’t do this….
There is a better life out there
I’m gonna go to sleep, please leave a reply to let me know you’re still kicking, take care
Hey Jake, thanks for your help. I’m still alive, just been sitting here debating over and over what to do and how to make things better but never really arriving at a conclusion. There’s no perfect solution (including suicide) as it tears me apart thinking about what’ll do to my family. But I’m going to see my psychologist and psychiatrist and then i’m going to try and leave this place and start anew. You seem like a really nice person. Please don’t worry about me anymore, im going to be okay either way.
Me I would go for 20 stories or higher if I were gong to do it that way. I met a guy who jumped off a 6 story building and lived and it was not pretty what he went through
find a nice 20 story building and a Huge dose of heroin
I am truly sorry that you feel this way. I’ve been there (well, I’m still here), but I’m here to tell you to hold on. If things are so final for you at this point, I’d say you should consider going to a trip. Somewhere far away, without too many people (agoraphobia is a *****, I completely get it). Take a loan if you don’t have enough money and just get the hell away. You literally have nothing to lose and the trip will help clear your mind. You haven’t seen every corner of this world and there are a lot of places you can visit. If, after your trip, you still feel bad, at least you’ll have met something new.
Travel. Make plans to go this or the next month. If it seems difficult, tell yourself, “Just this trip and maybe I’ll do it afterwards.” But GO.
Thank you for your advice. I think travelling is my last and best option right now. I have £0 but I can use the £1000 overdraft and if I decide to live after it I can sell the car. I’m sorry that you’re going through this too and I’ll keep an eye out for your posts for as long as I’m here.
Good to hear you’re making an effort to change the situation instead of giving up 🙂
Just please take care of yourself