Today is not my day…

I love theater.  I love musicals.  I love singing and acting.  So what do I do?  I take part in my school’s musicals every year.  We had our auditions for next years play today and I think I messed everything up.  After I did my lines they told me I did a good job but then came the singing…  I’ve listened to the song so many times I have it memorized!  I’ve worked so hard yet during my song they had me stop early!  They gave us a stopping point so the audition didn’t take too long and I didn’t even get to that point!  I was extremely nervous and I feel like I messed everything up!  It may not seem like a big deal but it is.  Next year will be my senior year, I want to have a good role at least once before I graduate.  I want to do the meet and greet with the people who came to watch.  I want to do a good job but…  I’m starting to doubt myself and its not like I have people around me saying its okay or that I did a good job.  So I either did such a crappy job that they didn’t want to hear any more or I did an amazing job and they didn’t need to hear more.  I won’t know until the auditions are over and they post the roles…  Man I’m scared…