I have no control of my thoughts.
Why do I feel this way. I know im not crazy.
I feel like I am, But I know im pretty normal because no one else even knows how im feeling right now.
Its like a hidden secret that im not trying to hide
I want help.
I don’t want this. I want to just leave for a while and take care of me. Lock me up if that’s what it takes. I cant do this anymore. I cant fight my own thoughts.
I don’t have the energy or the strength.
Im fighting a losing battle.
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What are your thoughts how dark and deep do they go? Ive visited many worls many sick sadened horrid places in my mind but what are yours?
The last time I felt that way I checked myself into the hospital. Not sure it was a good idea but I am still here. Oddly enough I did appreciate the break from the world at large. I wish you all the best.
Omg i loved hospital being able to lay in bed just lying there people taking care of u and the mash potatoes were luvly.I spent many times in hospital and each time fealing at ease glad it made u feel at ease aswell.
Hi Everyone,
Thank you for the support ,
I eneded up taking myself to the hospital, they sent me by ambulance to a bigger hospital in the city and locked me up in the Physc ward , gave me some nice lovely foam slippers with smiley faces on them, however the room alone and the security guards was to much for me, i broke down and begged to go home, they released me into the care of my boyfriend for the night, and they have constantly been calling me to check on me, i now have an appointment with a therepist and a physciatrist this week and i am looking forward to getting the help i need. Ive been such a mess and im glad im finally makeing the steps to get help.
Stay strong everyone. If you want the help it is there.